Wednesday, May 20, 2009

she kissed a girl

ada sekali tu, aku pergi bandar sengsorang. jalan2 cari benda. masa dekat2 nak balik tu, aku jalan la kat row of shops neh, and i saw one old lady being aggressive. marah2 tak tentu pasal. screaming at God-knows-what and shouting her anger out in public. people were just staring at her. immediately, aku bisik dalam hati aku: "i am so going to see you in the [psychiatric] ward soon".

true enough, selang beberapa hari tu, dia mmg dah kena admit. bukan aku doakan dia masuk wad mental. but she needs help, and help was what she was getting when she was admitted. once aku nampak dia dalam ward, i tried to speak to her. tried to understand what made her so angry. initially, cara dia jawap tu, mmg garang la. but aku tak give up. i kept on asking. mengiyakan aja apa yang dia cakap. then, tetiba dia blah, dah tak nak cakap ngan aku.... takpe... i let her go do what she wants.

then, days passed. aku tak cakap ngan dia. but instead, masa aku tgh interview patients lain, she will come and say something (serious takleh nak faham sangat apa dia cakap because of her loghat and also she was talking irrelevantly) to me. aku layan, just to show her that i am open for her to tell me anything. there are times, when i am alone sitting kat meja interview tu, she will come. asked to see my watch and complimented it. after that, i will ask her back if she has one. and then the story will flow....

day after day, i saw her getting better. less angry, more calm. i didn't follow up her case from her case sheet. i just observed her daily. for some reason, she does not talk to others as calmly while she was talking to me. today, aku tgk dia dah tukar baju. instead of wearing the ward clothes, she already changed into her daily clothes. mmg selalu tgk scene ni. pesakit akan tukar baju, in hope nak balik. but after that, kena salin balik sebab they are not discharged yet, they can't be anyway.

so, i walked passed *Mak Miah, who was already changed into her own baju kurung and donning her orange tudung. i asked if she was discharged already, and she said that she is going home. she was still saying some things, but aku totally tak faham. aku cuma mampu angguk and senyum pada dia. then Mak Miah hulur tangan. so, aku salam tangan dia. she usually does that anyway, for the last few days. but today was different. tetiba, Mak Miah pegang bahu aku and pulled me close to her. she kissed my cheeks like how a grandma would kiss her grandchild. aku terkejut. the nurses, the patients, the others, they were looking at the scene. shock was on their faces.

lepas Mak Miah cium pipi aku, aku cakap kat dia, jaga diri. and true enough, hari ni mmg Mak Miah kena discharge, which means she is well enough to be out there again.

tak sangka pula that Mak Miah rasa rapat ngan aku.... tetiba terasa rindu pula pada nenek aku sendiri.

Alhamdulillah... aku doakan Mak Miah akan sembuh secepatnya....

4 comments:

aloy_paradoks said...

moga doa lu termakbul... amin..

redSeptember said...

insya'Allah....:)

sama2 la kita doa untuk Mak Miah ekk...

apei said...

mcm ni punya sakit pun ada yer..

redSeptember said...

kenapa pula takde?