ah ye, memang ok je, yang tak ok sebenarnya adalah engkau, harap maklum ye.
siapa yang aku maksudkan di atas adalah S/N batuapi (pada sesiapa yang tak tahu cerita, sila click pada tag "mr. pelik & s/n batuapi" kat panel kiri aku tu). hari ni dah genap 5 hari aku dalam ward surgery, second cycle. aku maintain dengan pakaian kemas, iaitu baju kurung dan kasut yang tertutup (kasut crocs apple green aku tu).
pada hari pertama, aku memang ada rasa kurang senang sikit. takut bertembung ngan mr. pelik dan s/n batuapi. aku tak boleh bayangkan apa lagi masalah mereka nak cari ngan aku. tapi, mr. pelik tengah cuti sekarang. honeymoon barangkali. yang ada hanya s/n batuapi. masa aku lalu kat nurses' station, aku nampak s/n batuapi, tapi aku buat bodo macam sardine masak bodo aku tu. dia pun tegur aku.
mak aihh... terkejut aku....
tanya aku bila aku habis la, apa la. yang paling best lagi, sampai driver taxi aku yang aku naik dulu pun dia kenal. siap dia cerita driver taxi yang sama hantar anak dia pergi sekolah la, cat kereta la, apa la. seriously, i don't want to know. tapi aku tak nak tunjuk kurang hajar. mak aku tak besarkan aku macam tu. aku layan dia ngan baik, walau macam mana hina nya dia buat aku suatu ketika dulu. then aku pun minta diri sebab aku nak jumpa doktor aku.
hari ni pulak, tengah aku sibuk clerk patient, dia datang dari nurses station. aku tak perasan dia datang ke arah aku. tetiba aku tengok kawan aku yang ada disebelah aku bergerak jauh dari aku. s/n batuapi berdiri sebelah aku dan tanya: "dah pandai dah ke pasal benda ni?"
aku senyum dan jawap selamba: "takde la pandai sangat. masih kena belajar lagi, medicine bukan senang"
dia pun continue and tanya bila aku habis la (bukan dah tanya ke hari tu?), next year aku kat mana la, dan macam macam ada.... seriously, what else yang dia mahu dari aku?
p/s: kawan aku kata: "i was shocked that she came looking for you. i thought what la she wants. i think she is feeling bad about what she did to you before. she wants to show that she is good"
whatever.....
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Thursday, November 5, 2009
Thursday, September 17, 2009
pandang-pandang, jeling-jeling. serious nak kena tampar ngan aku.
tadi masuk OT, tengok C-sect. before that the anaes doc buat spinal kat patient. yang aku pelik tu, suka na dia tanya "you all ni siapa arr? why are you all here?". eh, bodoh bahalul ke apa. dah seminggu we all posting kat sana, balik2 tanya soalan sama. takkan la EVERYTIME kita masuk OT, nak introduce ourselves. she very well knows that we are posted there and she very well knows that we ARE supposed to be in the OT, not HER OT. lagipun, the OT is catered for the OBGYN doc, not the anes doc. serious gila kuasa. aku diam je. malas nak layan. padahal doc OBGYN sikit pun tak bising. you know why? because the OBGYN doc is dedicated to her work, her patient, not nak tunjuk kuasa.
ntah apa apa ntah.
and then, lepas dah habis op, we all keluar and pergi ke recovery bay. masa on the way tu, aku tgk ramai lak junior tengah bersiap2 nak masuk OT lain. dari jauh, aku dah nampak kelibat musibat. aku buat bodoh je. my friends semua dah: "alia, alia, your godfather".
yes, the one and only mr. pelik.
aku jalan je. pandang dia pun aku tak nak. i mean, i am not in his department kan, buat apa nak kecoh. as i was walking some more....
"alia, he is looking at you"
"biar la dia"
"serious, dia pandang kau tadi"
"ok"
apahal? aku ada hutang dia 20sen ke yang dia nak pandang2 aku? atau nak mencari kesalahan aku yang tak bersalah nih?
kunfayakun....
ntah apa apa ntah.
and then, lepas dah habis op, we all keluar and pergi ke recovery bay. masa on the way tu, aku tgk ramai lak junior tengah bersiap2 nak masuk OT lain. dari jauh, aku dah nampak kelibat musibat. aku buat bodoh je. my friends semua dah: "alia, alia, your godfather".
yes, the one and only mr. pelik.
aku jalan je. pandang dia pun aku tak nak. i mean, i am not in his department kan, buat apa nak kecoh. as i was walking some more....
"alia, he is looking at you"
"biar la dia"
"serious, dia pandang kau tadi"
"ok"
apahal? aku ada hutang dia 20sen ke yang dia nak pandang2 aku? atau nak mencari kesalahan aku yang tak bersalah nih?
kunfayakun....
Thursday, November 20, 2008
what if it were me?
i am more shocked today than i was yesterday as i saw what was this junior house officer donning for work. seriously, i am not judging her at all because hey, if she is good at what she is at, frankly, i don't mind how she dresses.i mean, look at doctor house, he is so scruffy and rude, people mistaken him as a janitor sometimes. but because he is GREAT at what he does, he is respected and kept.
anywho, these photos might not be too clear for any judgement to take place. let me fill you in:
-the top that she is wearing is actually showing off her cleaves, just like yesterday. but at least, yesterday's top was much more formal-like.
-this top clearly looked like it is to be worn to the mall than to work in the hospital.
-her pants were sticking to her skin like superglue, i don't think if mr. pelik sees me wearing those kind of pants, he'll let me even pass the gates of HSAH.
-and she was wearing sandals that are actually thongs with heels.
tacky, no?
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
jolok mata
bukan nak cakap apa la kan, doctor ni, she is a house officer. aku serious tak kisah dia nak pakai macam mana pun, janji tak over the top. semalam aku ada baca criteria pemakaian kat hospital HSAH ni. dia tulis sana, "PAKAIAN WANITA HENDAKLAH BERSESUAIAN, KEMAS, DAN TIDAK MENJOLOK MATA"
hurmmm.... takde pula dia mention, jangan pakai cuodroy, atau seluar fomal yang warna terang, atau seluar yang bercorak. tapi tak kisah la kan, whatever je la.
tapi bab dia tulis "TIDAK MENJOLOK MATA" tu, aku rasa junior house officer ni dah surpass dah part ni. kalau orang kata kat aku, cara dia pakai ni tak menjolok mata, tak tahu la aku nak kata apa kan. ok, she is a bit plump, pakai seluar pun jenis yang melekat kat kulit punya.
yang pelik tu, tak kena apa2 pulak. yang lagi pelik, as a house officer, shouldn't she be much more disciplined by the doctors? tak kena halau lak dia pakai macam ni. tak kena jerit lak dia pakai macam ni.
so, betul ke tak yang mmg derang nak kenakan aku?
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
pakai macam ni?
hari ni dah hari keTIGA, iye, bukan SATU, bukan DUA, dan bukan EMPAT. tapi hari keTIGA berturut-turut aku menurut, bukan makan limau purut, eh,apa aku mengarut ni?? hari ketiga consecutively, aku pakai baju kurung pergi hospital. pagi tadi, aku rushing sikit sebab sampai lambat. aku nampak dr. hariff (pengarah HSAH), tapi aku tak tegur dia cause i was too rushing. tapi dari ekor mata, aku tau dia tengok aku pakai baju kurung. aku rasa macam happy giler.
pastu, mula la sok sek sok sek dalam kelas aku: "eh, kenapa you pakai baju kurung aja arr these days?"
jawapan aku: "because i am already up to my neck with these people"
reaksi depa: "owh...."
ok, ni bukan apa la kan, aku saja je nak minta pendapat korang la. kalau pakai gaya macam ni boleh ke? ngan rambut yang tak ikat kemas and all? sebab budak ni pernah kena tegur sekali la dengan mr. pelik tu. SEKALI je. tapi sekarang ni, pakai skirt kaler mana fancy2 pun takpe. sebab apa? sebab budak ni bukan aku. kalau aku pakai macam ni, dah tentu kena halau punya.
takpe la. cuba try aku pakai lagu ni. ntah ntah boleh masuk dok atas riba mr. pelik terus kott? haishh... tak ndak la. selisih malaikat 44. sanggup aku duduk atas kulit durian!!!
mr. pelik, aku harap hidup kau aman la kan. sebab tengok keadaan sekarang, kau ni macam psycho aja. as they say la, specialist kat alor star pun gelak kat ko. takyah nak kata la, ko nyer senior specialist pun gelak kat belakang ko. ko aja yang tak tahu. sebab apa ko tak tahu? sebab ko ni ingat dunia ni kau yang punya. berlagak sangat!
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
he is back, stalking me.
hari ni pagi2 lagi aku dah dapat call from jo-ee, ada berita tak sedap didengar. aku dah risau, hati tak menentu. assesment friday ni, otak ke mana, aku ke mana. mula2 aku ingat tak nak clerk patient langsung, but arul ada ajak, so gi la buat satu kes: post dated pregnancy (40 weeks + 6 days). then, sebab friday ni, aku pun pergi la library hospital, pergi baca something and merembat yesterday punya cut out from the star (metro northern ed). sebab apa aku merembat? sebab aku masuk paper la kan!!! hehehe
but then, by 1030hours, aku naik tangga la dari tingkat 3 nak ke tingkat 7. kat tingkat 4, ada suara setan menyapa aku dari belakang :"awak ni tak reti pakai elok2 ka?" wtf?!!??! dialog ni lagi, suara ni lagi, setan ni lagi???
mr. pelik: he is on my back, yet again.
padahal, aku bukan dari ward dia pun. nevertheless, aku pakai cuodroy pants yang mak aku beli khas untuk pakai kat hospital, aku pakai blouse putih lengan panjang yang plain, and aku pakai labcoat yang buttoned up, aku pakai court shoes yang aku beli. salah lagi ke? untuk mr. pelik, mmg salah pun. kali ni, apa yang salah? seluar aku. dia balik2 kata aku pakai jeans. aku pun nak le defend myself kan, aku cakap ni bukan jeans, ni cuodroy. dia terus melenting bila aku bersuara.
dari the staircase, dia soh aku kuar pergi corridor, nak bersemuka ngan aku kat situ. ke nak malukan aku sebenarnya? tak habis2 lagi. semua orang macam biasa la pandang aku. dia cakap kononnya dia kesian kat aku la sebab aku ni anak melayu. kalau tak, dia dah hantar nama aku kat director general of health of malaysia, biar aku kena buang uni terus. dia balik2 sebut pasal nak tangkap gambar aku dengan seluar tu. aku tak cakap ye, aku tak cakap tak. kau nak tangkap sangat kan? kenapa tak tangkap aja? naper nak tanya2? aku tak salah. tapi tak tangkap juga. dia siap cakap lagi kat aku, takyah la nak jumpa pengarah hospital, sebab dia bukan under pengarah, dia tu consultant kat hospital tu, pengarah yang dengar cakap dia. dia cakap lagi kat aku, takyah la nak cakap kat my lecturers or my school about what he is doing to me because he is much more superior.
siap cakap lagi yang dia selalu nampak aku kat tesco, tapi dia tak kisah aku nak pakai macam mana (bukan aku bogel ke apa. aku tau la ni tempat orang kan, aku pakai seluar panjang, t-shirt biasa), tapi kat hospital pakai aku tak sesuai. eh, hello, aku pakai semua benda yang mak aku beli yang dia kata mmg pakaian professional. tetap salah juga. seriously, dia mmg stalking aku. padahal, aku pakai depan HOD pun, dia tak kata apa. kenapa si setan yang consultant ni aja, nak bising macam bangang?
macam biasa la aku kena halau. siap cakap lagi "awak jangan nak tipu saya. saya tau dalam masa 15 min, awak keluar dari hospital ni, ikut jalan depan. saya akan suruh staff saya tengok awak. kalau awak tak keluar, saya akan hantar satu email kat DG, awak akan dibuang uni terus". dalam masa dia cakap ngan aku tu, dia tak pandang langsung mata aku. dia pandang kaki aku ada la. pastu dia ada cakap lagi, dia tak nak jerit kat aku hari ni, maknanya hari lain dia nak jerit kat aku la? gila.....
sumpah, takde saper lain dalam hospital ni yang kecoh pasal apa aku pakai kecuali dia. macam mana aku pakai simple pun, tetap salah. ok fine la, mak aku kata jangan nak compare ngan orang lain, betulkan diri tu dulu. tapi masalahnya, bila student lain, pakai jeans, mmg bebetul jeans yang ketat2 tu, sama high heels, orang lain tak nampak ke? kenapa aku ni, semua orang nampak? really, dia mmg pasang mata2 untuk stalk aku. dia benci sangat aku ni kenapa?
aku dah bosan la macam ni. aku pakai semua salah.
mesti le aku sedih + marah + sakit hati kan, aku tahan diri aku tak nak membuak. aku diam. then, aku baru nak cari ketenangan, dah kena bashing lagi. i mean, please la, in this moment, i need support, at least just make me feel ok. bash me later when i am stronger, not when i am vulnerable.
and then, i can't control myself, i cried....silently.....discreetly.
ya Allah, hanya engkau yang Maha mengetahui.
but then, by 1030hours, aku naik tangga la dari tingkat 3 nak ke tingkat 7. kat tingkat 4, ada suara setan menyapa aku dari belakang :"awak ni tak reti pakai elok2 ka?" wtf?!!??! dialog ni lagi, suara ni lagi, setan ni lagi???
mr. pelik: he is on my back, yet again.
padahal, aku bukan dari ward dia pun. nevertheless, aku pakai cuodroy pants yang mak aku beli khas untuk pakai kat hospital, aku pakai blouse putih lengan panjang yang plain, and aku pakai labcoat yang buttoned up, aku pakai court shoes yang aku beli. salah lagi ke? untuk mr. pelik, mmg salah pun. kali ni, apa yang salah? seluar aku. dia balik2 kata aku pakai jeans. aku pun nak le defend myself kan, aku cakap ni bukan jeans, ni cuodroy. dia terus melenting bila aku bersuara.
dari the staircase, dia soh aku kuar pergi corridor, nak bersemuka ngan aku kat situ. ke nak malukan aku sebenarnya? tak habis2 lagi. semua orang macam biasa la pandang aku. dia cakap kononnya dia kesian kat aku la sebab aku ni anak melayu. kalau tak, dia dah hantar nama aku kat director general of health of malaysia, biar aku kena buang uni terus. dia balik2 sebut pasal nak tangkap gambar aku dengan seluar tu. aku tak cakap ye, aku tak cakap tak. kau nak tangkap sangat kan? kenapa tak tangkap aja? naper nak tanya2? aku tak salah. tapi tak tangkap juga. dia siap cakap lagi kat aku, takyah la nak jumpa pengarah hospital, sebab dia bukan under pengarah, dia tu consultant kat hospital tu, pengarah yang dengar cakap dia. dia cakap lagi kat aku, takyah la nak cakap kat my lecturers or my school about what he is doing to me because he is much more superior.
siap cakap lagi yang dia selalu nampak aku kat tesco, tapi dia tak kisah aku nak pakai macam mana (bukan aku bogel ke apa. aku tau la ni tempat orang kan, aku pakai seluar panjang, t-shirt biasa), tapi kat hospital pakai aku tak sesuai. eh, hello, aku pakai semua benda yang mak aku beli yang dia kata mmg pakaian professional. tetap salah juga. seriously, dia mmg stalking aku. padahal, aku pakai depan HOD pun, dia tak kata apa. kenapa si setan yang consultant ni aja, nak bising macam bangang?
macam biasa la aku kena halau. siap cakap lagi "awak jangan nak tipu saya. saya tau dalam masa 15 min, awak keluar dari hospital ni, ikut jalan depan. saya akan suruh staff saya tengok awak. kalau awak tak keluar, saya akan hantar satu email kat DG, awak akan dibuang uni terus". dalam masa dia cakap ngan aku tu, dia tak pandang langsung mata aku. dia pandang kaki aku ada la. pastu dia ada cakap lagi, dia tak nak jerit kat aku hari ni, maknanya hari lain dia nak jerit kat aku la? gila.....
sumpah, takde saper lain dalam hospital ni yang kecoh pasal apa aku pakai kecuali dia. macam mana aku pakai simple pun, tetap salah. ok fine la, mak aku kata jangan nak compare ngan orang lain, betulkan diri tu dulu. tapi masalahnya, bila student lain, pakai jeans, mmg bebetul jeans yang ketat2 tu, sama high heels, orang lain tak nampak ke? kenapa aku ni, semua orang nampak? really, dia mmg pasang mata2 untuk stalk aku. dia benci sangat aku ni kenapa?
aku dah bosan la macam ni. aku pakai semua salah.
mesti le aku sedih + marah + sakit hati kan, aku tahan diri aku tak nak membuak. aku diam. then, aku baru nak cari ketenangan, dah kena bashing lagi. i mean, please la, in this moment, i need support, at least just make me feel ok. bash me later when i am stronger, not when i am vulnerable.
and then, i can't control myself, i cried....silently.....discreetly.
ya Allah, hanya engkau yang Maha mengetahui.
Wednesday, October 15, 2008
dress c.o.d.e.
remember those episodes of my life where i get picked on constantly by Mr. Pelik and S/N batuapi, about the way i dress (eventhough i have tried my level best to dress most appropriately)?so now, if you have read my entry on "when in Rome....", you'd realize that i have become more subtle and i tend to blend in. evidence that i have blend in well was when one of the bigshots of the Merbok district can't even pick me out from a crowd of people!! usually, they can do that in a blink of an eye. finally!!
so yesterday, we headed to campus straight from hospital as we had a long hospital session and there was no time to head back home and change or freshen up. i was still in my hospital wear i.e. semi-professional as i entered the classroom. some of my mates had the liberty to go back and change first. therefore, some of them came with casual clothes i.e. pedalpusher jeans, baby T, t-shirts, no tie etc....
the doc that took us was a local gentleman. naturally, one would think that he wouldn't mind much about how we dress so long that we attended the lectures. i mean, he was careless about it before, so what will make him tick if someone come dressed not according to the dresscode, eh?
we were in shock.
She came in looking like she just got back from shopping in the pasar malam, very very casual. doc VM signalled for her to go to him, he said something and she made the move to leave the room. and suddenly, he burst out! he was going on and on about the way a medic student is supposed to dress. he chased out those that were already in their Ts and jeans, those that didn't have their ties on, those that were wearing too tight for comfort.
everyone was just quiet when he started the lecture with how to dress appropriately and he said that we are not to even show our faces in the campus or hospital if we can't make an effort to dress properly.
as for me, the first words that came out of my mouth once he was done were: "for once, it is not me! thank God!"
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
kena halau lagi. last warning yang keberapa ni?
hari ni aku kena halau lagi. tapi kali ni kena halau dari mr. Haridass.
pagi tadi sebelum kena halau, aku masuk ward hari ni pun sekejap aja because tak ada interesting case. so, aku decided to go to the library before the discussion session starts. masa tu, mr. haridass tgh buat rounds with the other doctors, and we didn't cross paths at all. so, he couldn't have seen me prior.
my groupmate called me when i was in the library. said that mr. hari wanted to see all the students. so, i went back into the ward.
i was wearing the black pants that mama recently bought for me and the formal shoes that i have (i have worn these items for weeks and there were no incidents or complaints or teguran whatsoever regarding what i wore), and the labcoat all buttoned up (which i have been practising since mr. pelik's incidents with me).
me: "no sir, this is a blouse"
mr. h: "a blouse arr? then what are all those designs? now you go out of the ward and don't come back again. next time don't wear like this. you all think that if you wear labcoat and walk around, you are doctors is it?"
"kak, mr. hari baru HALAU budak ni tau. kalau dia masuk lagi, bagitau tau saya cepat-cepat"
mr. h: "today you may leave. next time if i catch you again, the whole batch cannot enter the surgical wards at all. this is the last warning"
note -> this happened infront of all my groupmates, at the nurses' station. you can just imagine the crowd.
*tak kisah pun. esok last day. aku pakai purdah la. tgk ok ke tak. but akhir tahun ni nak kena masuk surgery ward lagi (-_-"), jadi kena stock up dengan baju yang orang pakai pergi funeral la kott*
me: 'ok sir. sorry'
*i didn't even know what i was sorry about. i didn't do anything wrong. even my groupmates didn't think that i did anything wrong*
i told saras abt this (cause she wasn't in the ward today) and what she tot was that all this was just a facade to puaskan hati mr. pelik. they knew that i went to the director of HSAH about these abuses and mr. hari is doing this because he can't be putting down his own staff. so the scape goat is.......well, you guessed it.....ME!
i wasn't pissed or angry, i was CONFUSED. but i did not let any of them bring me down. i did something to myself to take the confusion away. something unthinkable in my books, something really unimaginable in anyway possible in my life.............I HAD A HAIRCUT! (please refer to "7 wonders of red". having a haircut is one of my fears.)
pagi tadi sebelum kena halau, aku masuk ward hari ni pun sekejap aja because tak ada interesting case. so, aku decided to go to the library before the discussion session starts. masa tu, mr. haridass tgh buat rounds with the other doctors, and we didn't cross paths at all. so, he couldn't have seen me prior.
my groupmate called me when i was in the library. said that mr. hari wanted to see all the students. so, i went back into the ward.
i was wearing the black pants that mama recently bought for me and the formal shoes that i have (i have worn these items for weeks and there were no incidents or complaints or teguran whatsoever regarding what i wore), and the labcoat all buttoned up (which i have been practising since mr. pelik's incidents with me).
i was standing behind the group as i was raeding something on the board while waiting for mr. hari to see us.
Mr. h: "you, come here. why are you standing there. you are the culprit. what are you wearing? you cannot get something proper to wear to the hospital is it?"
*me looking up and down at myself*
me: "these are not jeans sir, these are pants"
mr. h: "you don't know the code of wear in the hospital is it?"
me: "i don't know sir"
mr. h: "you don't know, you tell me. then i can give you the book"
*enter mr. pelik out of nowhere*
mr. p: 'oh, the same person lagi. i ingat orang lain'
mr. h: "i have never caught you but mr. pelik has caught you several times regarding your attire. open your coat."
*i don't see any relevance to this as my coat was all buttoned up and it is not see thru. but i unbuttoned anyway because he has asked me to.*
mr h: 'see what you are wearing. a t-shirt is it?"
note -> i was wearing a blouse layered with a top. but that does not matter as i was wearing my coat that was all BUTTONED UP.
me: "no sir, this is a blouse"
mr. h: "a blouse arr? then what are all those designs? now you go out of the ward and don't come back again. next time don't wear like this. you all think that if you wear labcoat and walk around, you are doctors is it?"
*err..... no. anyone can wear a labcoat. i certainly don't think i am a doctor yet, but my patients keep on calling me 'doctor' and my groupmates says that i look the part as a doctor already. so you tell me, does the way that i dress, which is very apropriate already, hinder me from being a good junior medical staff?*
*enter mr. pelik yet again, talking to the nurses that passed by*
mr.p: "sis, mr. hari baru HALAU budak ni. jangan kasi dia masuk lagi"
"kak, mr. hari baru HALAU budak ni tau. kalau dia masuk lagi, bagitau tau saya cepat-cepat"
mr. h: "today you may leave. next time if i catch you again, the whole batch cannot enter the surgical wards at all. this is the last warning"
note -> this happened infront of all my groupmates, at the nurses' station. you can just imagine the crowd.
*tak kisah pun. esok last day. aku pakai purdah la. tgk ok ke tak. but akhir tahun ni nak kena masuk surgery ward lagi (-_-"), jadi kena stock up dengan baju yang orang pakai pergi funeral la kott*
me: 'ok sir. sorry'
*i didn't even know what i was sorry about. i didn't do anything wrong. even my groupmates didn't think that i did anything wrong*
i told saras abt this (cause she wasn't in the ward today) and what she tot was that all this was just a facade to puaskan hati mr. pelik. they knew that i went to the director of HSAH about these abuses and mr. hari is doing this because he can't be putting down his own staff. so the scape goat is.......well, you guessed it.....ME!
i wasn't pissed or angry, i was CONFUSED. but i did not let any of them bring me down. i did something to myself to take the confusion away. something unthinkable in my books, something really unimaginable in anyway possible in my life.............I HAD A HAIRCUT! (please refer to "7 wonders of red". having a haircut is one of my fears.)
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
under the microscope
.....that is where i have been placed (other than being under pressure as well). if any of you have read my post "Professionalism redefined", you would remember that i have mentioned there regarding mr. pelik "passing" a warning to me through my groupmates. he even said that he will be posting a spy in the ward to monitor the way i dress to the hospital.
seriously, i thought that this was a JOKE. i mean, where would he find time to actually recruit a person to spy on me. maybe he thought that by putting a threat like this, i'd be afraid. it does not affect me, really.
the most retarded thing that i just found out today while i was on call is that, there IS actually a SPY especially for me. and the spy is non other than the HO that is under him!!
seriously, i thought that this was a JOKE. i mean, where would he find time to actually recruit a person to spy on me. maybe he thought that by putting a threat like this, i'd be afraid. it does not affect me, really.
the most retarded thing that i just found out today while i was on call is that, there IS actually a SPY especially for me. and the spy is non other than the HO that is under him!!
waaahhhh!!! i am THAT significant to him that he actually has a REAL spy for me? i really can't believe that he thinks of me so much that he has time to go through all these troubles. gawshhh... now i feel so damn IMPORTANT......not......
but seriously, does a specialist, who is holding a job position that i hope to be in one day, really act like this? i don't think the kids nowadays are down to this level of thinking.
although, the HO is very simple. he doesn't even care to monitor me or scan me up and down. he's so into his work and we'll be trailing after him to join in his on call rounds. like a normal cat, he was just curious to know who is this FAMOUS girl that he was supposed to spy on. i could see that he was excited to finally know who is ALIA (gaawwwssshhhh.... mr. pelik KNOWS my name! uisssshhhh..... melampaui batas dah ni!).
whatever la. if mr. pelik wants to be like an idiot, let him be. it IS his right.
next time when mr. pelik is picking out every single detail about me just to make sure that my life is a living hell, i hope he sees this.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
HE can't handle ME
Yeah, I heard about some STUDENT that you beat pretty bad and got in the RUMOURS
Sure, you own a cool JOB and I hear you get far with every NURSES
Yeah, I saw you on the WALL, your WORK is the $H!T but you're outrageous
Sure, I see you’re living' large with your crib and your cars and that's just great, but
Let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
Yeah, you make your big move and I see
you’re not used to being rejected
Sure, you making that call to your BITCH
and I’m sure you're well connected
Yeah, judging from that line you just passed
you are well known and FEARED
Sure, would me and my girls come participate in something you FORCED
Oohh..
Let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
It's a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
Don’t matter how you act with them
you can’t handle me
I don't really feel you got my back
Cuz you’re a selfish narcissistic psycho Freaking bootlicking Nazi creep and
You can’t handle me
Yeah, I think you’re kinda CRAZY
when you try and act like you ain’t looking
Sure, I think you’re kinda FAT and your ride – Sure is off the hook and
Yeah, bet you could take my mind off of STUDIES for some time and BRING me DOWN
Sure, you writing those CASESHEETS and acts you produce are really REDUNDANT
But, let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
It’s a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
No matter how you act with them you can’t handle me
Its just a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
Don’t matter how you act with them
you can’t handle me
I don't really feel you got my back
Cuz you’re a selfish narcissistic psycho Freaking bootlicking Nazi pimp and
You can’t handle me
Yeah, I heard about some STUDENT that you beat pretty bad and got in the RUMOURS
Sure, you own a cool JOB and I hear you get far with every NURSES
Yeah, I saw you on the WALL your song is the $H!T but you're outrageous
Sure, I see you’re living' large with your crib and your cars and that's just great,
but Let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
It’s a simple fact that
you can’t seem to handle me
No matter how you act with them you can’t handle me
It’s a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
Don’t matter how you act with them
you can’t handle me
I don't really feel you got my back
Cuz you’re a selfish narcissistic psycho Freaking bootlicking Nazi creep and
You can’t handle me (BECAUSE IN SO MANY WAYS, I AM BETTER THAN YOU!!)
.....AND THEY KNOW IT!
Sure, you own a cool JOB and I hear you get far with every NURSES
Yeah, I saw you on the WALL, your WORK is the $H!T but you're outrageous
Sure, I see you’re living' large with your crib and your cars and that's just great, but
Let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
Yeah, you make your big move and I see
you’re not used to being rejected
Sure, you making that call to your BITCH
and I’m sure you're well connected
Yeah, judging from that line you just passed
you are well known and FEARED
Sure, would me and my girls come participate in something you FORCED
Oohh..
Let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
It's a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
Don’t matter how you act with them
you can’t handle me
I don't really feel you got my back
Cuz you’re a selfish narcissistic psycho Freaking bootlicking Nazi creep and
You can’t handle me
Yeah, I think you’re kinda CRAZY
when you try and act like you ain’t looking
Sure, I think you’re kinda FAT and your ride – Sure is off the hook and
Yeah, bet you could take my mind off of STUDIES for some time and BRING me DOWN
Sure, you writing those CASESHEETS and acts you produce are really REDUNDANT
But, let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
It’s a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
No matter how you act with them you can’t handle me
Its just a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
Don’t matter how you act with them
you can’t handle me
I don't really feel you got my back
Cuz you’re a selfish narcissistic psycho Freaking bootlicking Nazi pimp and
You can’t handle me
Yeah, I heard about some STUDENT that you beat pretty bad and got in the RUMOURS
Sure, you own a cool JOB and I hear you get far with every NURSES
Yeah, I saw you on the WALL your song is the $H!T but you're outrageous
Sure, I see you’re living' large with your crib and your cars and that's just great,
but Let me tell you how it'd be
You won't get with this you see
Cuz you can't handle me
It’s a simple fact that
you can’t seem to handle me
No matter how you act with them you can’t handle me
It’s a simple fact that you can’t seem to handle me
Don’t matter how you act with them
you can’t handle me
I don't really feel you got my back
Cuz you’re a selfish narcissistic psycho Freaking bootlicking Nazi creep and
You can’t handle me (BECAUSE IN SO MANY WAYS, I AM BETTER THAN YOU!!)
.....AND THEY KNOW IT!
Friday, April 11, 2008
dr. jekyll and mr. pelik
10th april 2008: as usual, i went to the hospital today praying hard that nothing close to bad will happen to me. i guess i am on GOD's hotline as my prayers were answered.
i couldn't really sleep last nite as i was anxious about sitting for an exam today (nothing to do with my studies, it is one of those blahdy LAN subs). in the end, i woke up at 4am and did some reading (triple reading) to freshen up my knowledge. i was thinking of skipping ward today as the hospital docs are taking us fr discussion. this means that we have a 50% chance that mr. pelik will be handling my group. but when i think abt it again, i said to myself:
"aiiyahhh.... jes fecking go la. what the hell wants to happen, let it. least you know that you do not succumb to being a coward and let him win this battle"
so, with a heavy heart, but an open mind, i went to the hospital. my gameplan was to pretend to clerk a patient while reading some notes for the exam. initially, that was what had happened. but my desire to learn from the patients overcame the need to read the notes, as my patient was very cooperative and very informative.
*clerk clerk clerk*
then, the very much awaited (not really) discussion time came. weird.... none of the docs came to us. so, we waited some more till mr. pooh got a call, asking all of us to go to the scope room. like a child running wild in a candy store, i went to the operation theater area, where the scope room is.
*put on scrubs*
in the scope room, mr. GQ, HOD of surgery and mr. pie, were there conducting the endoscopy and colonoscopy, each. i was glad to see that mr. pelik wasn't there. i was even more glad to see that mr. GQ, my fav surgeon, were taking our group. everything went on well untill.....
*my heart almost came to a halt*
the voice of mr. pelik (read: extremely LOUD) resonated all over the scope room. he was babbling away like as if he had mouth diarrhea (but then again, there is this saying that says "an empty vessel is always the loudest). the way he told the other students to get out of his way was like the way someone would shoo away stray dogs. i was lucky that i wasn't standing with that group as i was assisting mr. GQ with his scope procedure. i was looking rather closely to screen that i did not notice mr. pelik came and stood right beside me.
"kebelakangan sikit ye. tak yah nak tgk screen dekat-dekat. haa... tengok jauh sikit baru nampak", he said w/out any not of sarcasm and the tone was, dare i say this, SUBTLE.
in my mind, he prolly didn't even know it was me. maybe he thought that i was someone else.
as i was holding the patient, mr. pelik kept on saying:
"takyah pegang patient, biar dia relax"
so, i let go and then he started holding the patient because the patient was fighting the scope entry. and then, all of a sudden...... our paths collided that our hands BRUSHED against each other. iiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwww.............scary..........
*i need to peel off that area of my skin now (-_-")*
seriously, today, he really is PELIK because he seems to be subtle with me. i only have this to note:
i couldn't really sleep last nite as i was anxious about sitting for an exam today (nothing to do with my studies, it is one of those blahdy LAN subs). in the end, i woke up at 4am and did some reading (triple reading) to freshen up my knowledge. i was thinking of skipping ward today as the hospital docs are taking us fr discussion. this means that we have a 50% chance that mr. pelik will be handling my group. but when i think abt it again, i said to myself:
"aiiyahhh.... jes fecking go la. what the hell wants to happen, let it. least you know that you do not succumb to being a coward and let him win this battle"
so, with a heavy heart, but an open mind, i went to the hospital. my gameplan was to pretend to clerk a patient while reading some notes for the exam. initially, that was what had happened. but my desire to learn from the patients overcame the need to read the notes, as my patient was very cooperative and very informative.
*clerk clerk clerk*
then, the very much awaited (not really) discussion time came. weird.... none of the docs came to us. so, we waited some more till mr. pooh got a call, asking all of us to go to the scope room. like a child running wild in a candy store, i went to the operation theater area, where the scope room is.
*put on scrubs*
in the scope room, mr. GQ, HOD of surgery and mr. pie, were there conducting the endoscopy and colonoscopy, each. i was glad to see that mr. pelik wasn't there. i was even more glad to see that mr. GQ, my fav surgeon, were taking our group. everything went on well untill.....
*my heart almost came to a halt*
the voice of mr. pelik (read: extremely LOUD) resonated all over the scope room. he was babbling away like as if he had mouth diarrhea (but then again, there is this saying that says "an empty vessel is always the loudest). the way he told the other students to get out of his way was like the way someone would shoo away stray dogs. i was lucky that i wasn't standing with that group as i was assisting mr. GQ with his scope procedure. i was looking rather closely to screen that i did not notice mr. pelik came and stood right beside me.
"kebelakangan sikit ye. tak yah nak tgk screen dekat-dekat. haa... tengok jauh sikit baru nampak", he said w/out any not of sarcasm and the tone was, dare i say this, SUBTLE.
in my mind, he prolly didn't even know it was me. maybe he thought that i was someone else.
as i was holding the patient, mr. pelik kept on saying:
"takyah pegang patient, biar dia relax"
so, i let go and then he started holding the patient because the patient was fighting the scope entry. and then, all of a sudden...... our paths collided that our hands BRUSHED against each other. iiiiiiiieeeeeeeeeeeeeewwwwwwwwwwww.............scary..........
*i need to peel off that area of my skin now (-_-")*
seriously, today, he really is PELIK because he seems to be subtle with me. i only have this to note:
- maybe he didn't realize it was ME
- maybe because i was not in any way stimulating his nerve circuit that has long been short
- maybe he finally saw that i am determined no matter what, to learn. not even his classics can bring my spirit down
- maybe, just maybe, he does have a split personality (i am going for this one)
on another note:
a smart aleck ms. biglips (my groupmate), made a fool of herself infront of mr. GQ. to me, if you don't know something, jes shut the fecking up. instead, she decided to act smart and answer mr. GQ's question with an utterly dumb answer. we were in the scope room, so the question goes like this:
"why do we scope this patient who has signs of a post stroke episode?"
ms. biglips answer was: "because he is an alcoholic"
i nearly died laughing when i heard this. i answered the question and my answer was correct. i am glad that i could ans the HOD and i was happy that the HO confirmed my other answers to questions from the HOD regarding the same patient.
moral is, TAKYAH LA NAK BERLAGAK PANDAI!
btw, do you know the answer?
*snicker snicker snicker*
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
"I MUST get my daily fix of picking on her", said S/N batuapi.
it was a successful whole day in the ward yesterday as i was not picked on regarding anything that i was wearing, doing, walking, breathing....or LIVING. i wanted to see the number on my "how many days till the next picking session" counter go up to 3 (since i cleared day 1 and 2). but in the end, i have to reset the counter back to 0. today, on the 9th of april 2008, this was what happened:
disclaimer: i am writing what happened in Malay because i think it is far far far more funnier :P
seperti biasa, aku masuk ke ward hari ini dengan memakai baju kurung. tapi, aku malu ingin mengatakan bahawasanya, baju kurung yang aku pakai hari ni, bukanlah milikku (cehh.... macam tajuk lagu la pulak). infact, baju ini adalah milik rakan ku yang berbangsa india. aduiisshhh..... satu penamparan hebat aku terasa menusuk diri ku. apa kes la macam ni kan? aku ni yang sepatutnya ada banyak baju melayu. aiiishhh.... malu malu.... tapi nak buat macam mana? aku ada 3 pasang sahaja baju melayu di sini (sebenarnya aku ada 2 pasang je, yang satu lagi tu, aku me"minjam" mak aku punya). aku punya budget lari bila aku ada 5 hari untuk masuk wad, tapi tak cukup baju kurung. takkan la nak recycle baju sama dalam seminggu kan? nnt tu pun akan jadi satu masalah negara antarabangasa bagi mr. pelik dan S/N batuapi.
balik ke cerita asal (macam mana aku leh cerita kisah sedih baju melayu aku ni? pada sesiapa yang nak belikan aku lagi baju melayu, silakan lah. boleh contact aku utk dapatkan size ye ;)
aku clerk aku punya patient macam biasa la. aku ni tak biasa pakai baju melayu sangat. tambahan pula, kat sini cuaca sangatlah panas walaupun hari2 hujan. aku dah berpeluh2 dah ni. jadi, untuk kurangkan proses respirasi aku, aku pun lipat le lengan kurung tu sehingga ke atas siku. ini juga memudahkan aku untuk periksa patient dan membasuh tangan selepas memeriksa satu patient.
disclaimer: i am writing what happened in Malay because i think it is far far far more funnier :P
seperti biasa, aku masuk ke ward hari ini dengan memakai baju kurung. tapi, aku malu ingin mengatakan bahawasanya, baju kurung yang aku pakai hari ni, bukanlah milikku (cehh.... macam tajuk lagu la pulak). infact, baju ini adalah milik rakan ku yang berbangsa india. aduiisshhh..... satu penamparan hebat aku terasa menusuk diri ku. apa kes la macam ni kan? aku ni yang sepatutnya ada banyak baju melayu. aiiishhh.... malu malu.... tapi nak buat macam mana? aku ada 3 pasang sahaja baju melayu di sini (sebenarnya aku ada 2 pasang je, yang satu lagi tu, aku me"minjam" mak aku punya). aku punya budget lari bila aku ada 5 hari untuk masuk wad, tapi tak cukup baju kurung. takkan la nak recycle baju sama dalam seminggu kan? nnt tu pun akan jadi satu masalah negara antarabangasa bagi mr. pelik dan S/N batuapi.
balik ke cerita asal (macam mana aku leh cerita kisah sedih baju melayu aku ni? pada sesiapa yang nak belikan aku lagi baju melayu, silakan lah. boleh contact aku utk dapatkan size ye ;)
aku clerk aku punya patient macam biasa la. aku ni tak biasa pakai baju melayu sangat. tambahan pula, kat sini cuaca sangatlah panas walaupun hari2 hujan. aku dah berpeluh2 dah ni. jadi, untuk kurangkan proses respirasi aku, aku pun lipat le lengan kurung tu sehingga ke atas siku. ini juga memudahkan aku untuk periksa patient dan membasuh tangan selepas memeriksa satu patient.
beginilah rupanya setelah aku lipat lengan tangan kurung itu (i just folded the lengan k, not that i walked around nekked or what). mr.pelik tengah buat round sama team dia masa tu. dia takde cakap or comment menda pasal pemakaian aku pada hari ni. sesudah aku clerk patient, aku pun pergi jumpa group mate aku. pada masa yang sama, mr. pelik telah keluar dari ward kerana telah selesai melakukan round.
tetiba, dengan aku tak perasan nya, S/N batuapi datang ke arah ku dan memegang manja tangan ku sambil cuba menurunkan lipatan lengan kurung ku itu. sambil sambil tu, S/N batuapi berkata:
"angkat lengan tinggi dik?" secara sinis
dengan muka yang takde perasaan, aku menjawap:
"panaslah cik"
pada masa yang sama, aku tengah bercakap dengan DD. kami berdiri agak rapat bertentangan each other. kalau orang yang agak normal pemikirannya, dia akan berjalan di belakang conversation itu kan? tapi, dengan muka yang ala2 constipated tu, setelah mendengar jawapan ku yang selamba baba, S/N batuapi melabuhkan dirinya di antara aku dan kawan ku.
aku pun disregard je la apa perangai yang S/N batuapi nak tunjuk.
aku lipat lengan kurung pun nak dijadikan isu. bukannyer aku pakai sleeveless.
haiishhh....
now, my day-counter is 0 (-_-) , if lidis, when la i can break my personal record (actually i have yet to set one).
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
just between YOU and I (not so, really)
i was shock to know more things about mr. pelik today. well, for your info, i did not snoop or sneak or kaypoh around to find these FACTS about him. but i was told by the higher authority, mr. kublai, that there were so many accounts of him being mentally retarded to the students and aimlessly abusive in his choice of words and conduct. these FACTS, i have heard before, mind you. but i did not quite believe them at first until today, that they were coming from mr. kublai. and i am extremely SURE that mr. kublai wouldn't fibb on this matter.so here goes.... inside the TWISTED mind of mr. pelik (really, i am still wondering why the government is still keeping this kind of people. i guess before this no one actually stood up seriously against him. well, i just hope justice is served)....
- in the earlier batch, there was a malay girl that was posted in the surgical ward, unfortunately, she was under his "care" too. she does not wear the head scarf. mr. pelik questioned her as to why she does not wear it and picked on her because of this.
- he told one of the girls that was (according to him) wearing undecently, that if she was going to wear like this to hospital, she might as well be naked and walk around. the girl was wearing a below-the-knee hap-cut skirt that, to me and most of the others, is not revealing at all.
- during a session in the scope room, he has rudely asked a student to move out of his way, when he could have said it nicely.
- during scope, he is supposed to explain what was seen, but instead of letting the MOs and students to look at the screen, just to be spiteful, he turned the screen away from them.
- yesterday, while i was clerking my patient, mr. pelik came in the bay to do his rounds. the first thing that he looked at was me. simply because he want to find my mistake and to pick on me. unfortunately for him, i was in "perfect" condition, which means i was "flawless".
.....and of course this other BIG SECRET that i think you and i already know by now.....
NUTS!
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Professionalism redefined
today, i went to the hospital wearing this.....
and then, LITERALLY......
i got this kind of reactions from almost everyone (even the people that i don't even know but have frequently seen in the hospital as well as my campus).
in campus: "la...saya ingatkan orang lain tadi", the guard.
my group mates: "wahhh.... alia pakai baju kurung"
"what did mr. pelik said today?"
"eh, eh, awak mari sini. kenapa awak tinggi sangat ni? awak keluar dari ward
saya sekarang. heheheheh"
"if after this he wants to halau you, i really don't know what to say la"
myself: "oiiiissshhhh..... panasnya" *sweat sweat sweat*
mr. pelik was not in the ward today, he was in the operation theater. S/N batuapi however, was there. i was hoping that she did not see me as looked fairly busy with her work (but then again, her work is actually to taunt and pick on me kan?). we were attending the bedside discussion with colonel when i was told to get the case sheet from the nurses' station. at that exact moment, S/N batuapi was there, on the phone. i passed her and then i heard:
"dik, dik, dik"
*buat bo alia, just ignore. prolly she wasn't even talking to you*, said my heart.
i had to pass her again to go back to my patient. i heard it again:
"dik, dik. oooooo..... cik adik, meh sini kejap"
*shaites.... apa lagi kau nak?*, said my heart
"nama siapa?"
"alia"
"haaa....macam ni la baru cantik. baru la orang tua tu (mr.pelik) tak marah. kan ke cantik macam ni"
*hmmm....*
"nama siapa tadi?" <~clearly she has amnesia
"alia"
i walked away with this feeling.....
S.H.O.C.K.E.D! at 9.8 richter scale!
ok... so the day went rather well (too well actually) which made me a little uncomfy (not that i am asking for bad things to happen). i felt something really heavy in my heart. i knew something was coming, somehow. it was back to the campus when.....
April 6, 2008: At approximately 1400 hours, Mr. pooh, my group mate, has told me that Mr. pelik has passed a message to the students that attended the Operation Theatre session, to be told to me. The message was:
§ This is the last warning for me regarding my dressing
§ I must change my shoes. Get the black covered ones.
§ I must not wear jeans to the wards (the black pants).
§ I must wear formal clothes only.
§ That he knew I had met with the godfather, regarding the situation that Mr.pelik had had with me.
§ If I do not comply to his warning, he will write a letter to my dean, regarding my behaviour.
and then, LITERALLY......
i got this kind of reactions from almost everyone (even the people that i don't even know but have frequently seen in the hospital as well as my campus).
in campus: "la...saya ingatkan orang lain tadi", the guard.
my group mates: "wahhh.... alia pakai baju kurung"
"what did mr. pelik said today?"
"eh, eh, awak mari sini. kenapa awak tinggi sangat ni? awak keluar dari ward
saya sekarang. heheheheh"
"if after this he wants to halau you, i really don't know what to say la"
myself: "oiiiissshhhh..... panasnya" *sweat sweat sweat*
mr. pelik was not in the ward today, he was in the operation theater. S/N batuapi however, was there. i was hoping that she did not see me as looked fairly busy with her work (but then again, her work is actually to taunt and pick on me kan?). we were attending the bedside discussion with colonel when i was told to get the case sheet from the nurses' station. at that exact moment, S/N batuapi was there, on the phone. i passed her and then i heard:
"dik, dik, dik"
*buat bo alia, just ignore. prolly she wasn't even talking to you*, said my heart.
i had to pass her again to go back to my patient. i heard it again:
"dik, dik. oooooo..... cik adik, meh sini kejap"
*shaites.... apa lagi kau nak?*, said my heart
"nama siapa?"
"alia"
"haaa....macam ni la baru cantik. baru la orang tua tu (mr.pelik) tak marah. kan ke cantik macam ni"
*hmmm....*
"nama siapa tadi?" <~clearly she has amnesia
"alia"
i walked away with this feeling.....
S.H.O.C.K.E.D! at 9.8 richter scale!ok... so the day went rather well (too well actually) which made me a little uncomfy (not that i am asking for bad things to happen). i felt something really heavy in my heart. i knew something was coming, somehow. it was back to the campus when.....
April 6, 2008: At approximately 1400 hours, Mr. pooh, my group mate, has told me that Mr. pelik has passed a message to the students that attended the Operation Theatre session, to be told to me. The message was:
§ This is the last warning for me regarding my dressing
§ I must change my shoes. Get the black covered ones.
§ I must not wear jeans to the wards (the black pants).
§ I must wear formal clothes only.
§ That he knew I had met with the godfather, regarding the situation that Mr.pelik had had with me.
§ If I do not comply to his warning, he will write a letter to my dean, regarding my behaviour.
§ He will be asking the doctors that are in the ward that I am in to monitor my dressing and to report to him promptly if I do not dress according to his criteria.
see.... i fecking knew that something fishy was going on. haiisshhhh.... mr. pelik, mr. pelik. if you are really a professional person, or the least, an ADULT, call me la. talk to me personally. why you want to pass pass msg one? you think this is high skool isit? aiiyaaahhhh.... malu la lidat.
Friday, April 4, 2008
the RECURRENCE rate is high (when i thought it was all over)
April 4, 2008: At 0830 hours, I entered ward K1 to start my on-call duty. At approximately 0915 hours, Mr. pelik came in, dressed in a bright orange t-shirt, a pair of brown slacks, and a pair of snickers, to attend the ward round session that was being held by the MOs and HOs. Since it is an off day, they were dressed casually. But the HOs were in their proper attire. I was dressed in the manner that a medical student should be wearing (or so i thought).
Mr. pelik looked at me when he arrived at the ward but did not say anything. I assume and hope that I am well dressed, up to his expectations, at least. My group mates and I joined the ward round session as we are eager to learn from the doctors. Everything went on well.
After the doctors left the first patient that they attended to, we went to the said patient and started talking to him about his condition. Mr. pelik and his team were attending to the other patients. At about 0940 hours, while we were still talking to the first patient, I heard Mr. pelik saying:
“eh, eh, panggil budak tu sini”
Naturally, I wanted to know who was he calling and so, I turned to look at the team (including Mr. pelik) that were standing around the bed opposite to my patient. He was addressing me to go to him. I went there and Mr. pelik said:
“awak pergi balik, tukar seluar awak, tukar kasut awak”
I did not want to face another session of him screaming at me. Reluctantly, I walked away from the bay and went out of the ward.
Due to my absence from the ward today, I have missed one very interesting case. This has made me lost the chance to learn from the patient.
I was wearing my lab coat (buttoned up), black pants, covered sand-coloured sandals.
The first day I saw Mr. pelik in the hospital, I was wearing the same pair of pants, and I have been wearing the same pair of shoes. He never commented anything on this particular pants and shoes. I have even met the godfather, and the Head of Department, Mr. GQ, with the same pair of shoes, and they did not make any comment about the shoes. So I assume that it was appropriate to wear them to the hospital.
According to my group mate, Mr. pelik even told one of the staff nurse that was on duty, to report to him immediately if I entered the ward again today. Therefore, I did not make any attempt to enter the ward again.
Mr. pelik looked at me when he arrived at the ward but did not say anything. I assume and hope that I am well dressed, up to his expectations, at least. My group mates and I joined the ward round session as we are eager to learn from the doctors. Everything went on well.
After the doctors left the first patient that they attended to, we went to the said patient and started talking to him about his condition. Mr. pelik and his team were attending to the other patients. At about 0940 hours, while we were still talking to the first patient, I heard Mr. pelik saying:
“eh, eh, panggil budak tu sini”
Naturally, I wanted to know who was he calling and so, I turned to look at the team (including Mr. pelik) that were standing around the bed opposite to my patient. He was addressing me to go to him. I went there and Mr. pelik said:
“awak pergi balik, tukar seluar awak, tukar kasut awak”
I did not want to face another session of him screaming at me. Reluctantly, I walked away from the bay and went out of the ward.
Due to my absence from the ward today, I have missed one very interesting case. This has made me lost the chance to learn from the patient.
I was wearing my lab coat (buttoned up), black pants, covered sand-coloured sandals.
The first day I saw Mr. pelik in the hospital, I was wearing the same pair of pants, and I have been wearing the same pair of shoes. He never commented anything on this particular pants and shoes. I have even met the godfather, and the Head of Department, Mr. GQ, with the same pair of shoes, and they did not make any comment about the shoes. So I assume that it was appropriate to wear them to the hospital.
According to my group mate, Mr. pelik even told one of the staff nurse that was on duty, to report to him immediately if I entered the ward again today. Therefore, I did not make any attempt to enter the ward again.
mr. pelik did not even comment on the pair of shoes that my friend was wearing, which to me, i thought was way to much for him to handle. so, which one of the above is more appropriate?
apa salah aku lagi kali ini?
Monday, March 31, 2008
FIRE vs WATER (and the winner is.......?)
today is fairly a good there apart from some hitches here and there. it started out well as i got a call from my 2 fav guys. they were awfully funny and of course, i tot won something.... aisshhh... see, see... nothing oso ('_')
i went to the hosp today with an open heart. after what had happened, i think i can go through any crap that they are gonna gimme. i know for sure that mr. pelik will be doing his rounds today, and boy, was i on the dot! as usual, S/N batuapi is always there. with that kind of attitude and mentality, i don't think she can make it any further.
so i entered the ward, as prim and proper as i could. no doubt i was anxious. i guess this is cause after the breakdown session i had, i felt so blahdy vulnerable, it cracked my self-esteem a little. thank god i managed to put it back together with belief. anyway, as the team (inclusive of mr. pelik and S/N batuapi) were rounding, i was looking for interesting cases and trying to clerk them. i did my best to not be anywhere near them as i do not want to "provoke" their crazed minds. the funny thing, today, they seem to be sedated. i could hear their LOUD voices tho.... but seriously, they seem really sedated (as compared to their usual self).
i tot i needed to wear this to the ward today as they always notice me even when i am doing (or wearing) nothing out of the ordinary. although the tension that was in the air felt that it could cut an umbilical cord, mr. pelik and S/N batuapi did not lash at me at all. but poor thing, i heard one HO got some lashings from mr. pelik. i pity him because today, he is the "sitting duck".
maybe yesterday, mr. pelik and S/N batuapi got a good sitdown session with the godfather. i actually went to see the godfather regarding this matter because i want it to stop. i don't go there to tell on them. i went there simply because they have to know their limits. i guess now after the session (that i assume they had) with godfather, they know not to mess around and act like uncivilized people (or simians, as i have noted earlier).
all this while, i tot docs are most patient people in the world as they have to handle many things. but for mr. pelik, and all the other docs that are following his foot steps, i could (MUST) make an exception.
as i was saying, i chose not to be an unhappy person in this situation. i felt lost when it happened. now i am back on track. i don't want to be like them, full of vengeance and hatred. i want to have my own individual personality, i just want to be me: HAPPY.
PP/S: on another note, thanks to mr. rogers, we got to practice doing laparoscopy today. it is tougher than you think!! well, at least i tried! weeeee.....!!
me, trying to get the thing right on target.
i went to the hosp today with an open heart. after what had happened, i think i can go through any crap that they are gonna gimme. i know for sure that mr. pelik will be doing his rounds today, and boy, was i on the dot! as usual, S/N batuapi is always there. with that kind of attitude and mentality, i don't think she can make it any further.
so i entered the ward, as prim and proper as i could. no doubt i was anxious. i guess this is cause after the breakdown session i had, i felt so blahdy vulnerable, it cracked my self-esteem a little. thank god i managed to put it back together with belief. anyway, as the team (inclusive of mr. pelik and S/N batuapi) were rounding, i was looking for interesting cases and trying to clerk them. i did my best to not be anywhere near them as i do not want to "provoke" their crazed minds. the funny thing, today, they seem to be sedated. i could hear their LOUD voices tho.... but seriously, they seem really sedated (as compared to their usual self).
i tot i needed to wear this to the ward today as they always notice me even when i am doing (or wearing) nothing out of the ordinary. although the tension that was in the air felt that it could cut an umbilical cord, mr. pelik and S/N batuapi did not lash at me at all. but poor thing, i heard one HO got some lashings from mr. pelik. i pity him because today, he is the "sitting duck".
maybe yesterday, mr. pelik and S/N batuapi got a good sitdown session with the godfather. i actually went to see the godfather regarding this matter because i want it to stop. i don't go there to tell on them. i went there simply because they have to know their limits. i guess now after the session (that i assume they had) with godfather, they know not to mess around and act like uncivilized people (or simians, as i have noted earlier).
..........WRONG.
mr. pelik and S/N batuapi were doing their rounds while holding this board up (or so i imagined).all this while, i tot docs are most patient people in the world as they have to handle many things. but for mr. pelik, and all the other docs that are following his foot steps, i could (MUST) make an exception.
as i was saying, i chose not to be an unhappy person in this situation. i felt lost when it happened. now i am back on track. i don't want to be like them, full of vengeance and hatred. i want to have my own individual personality, i just want to be me: HAPPY.
PP/S: on another note, thanks to mr. rogers, we got to practice doing laparoscopy today. it is tougher than you think!! well, at least i tried! weeeee.....!!
me, trying to get the thing right on target.Sunday, March 30, 2008
ancient going on childish
30th march, 2008: i went to the hospital today. all prepared if they were going to give me more shaites than what they had given me last thursday. i dressed as simple and as decent as i could.
i buttoned up my labcoat. made sure that my steth were in place. made sure that my ID was showing. made sure that i have all my instruments for examination of patients.
wore the right shoes (as long as it is covered right?). but then again, i saw many other staffs, doctors, students wearing sandals to the hosp. so, what is wrong with my shoes eh?
i was doing my usual clerking, looking for interesting cases, minding my own ass business. what i didn't know was S/N batuapi was on the lookout for me. watching me like a hawk. trying to find my fault. since i didn't dress wrongly (as according to her and mr. pelik) today, she was waiting anxiously for me to do something wrong.
i went to one patient and opened up his case sheet. i did this cause previously the MO told me to do so. he said, apart from clerking, you should also look at the case sheet and see what kind of management and investigations that were carried out for that particular patient. that is how you should learn. but S/N batuapi caught me there. from about 50m away, she said at the audible level (read: loud):
"siapa kasi tengok case sheet tu? tak boleh tengok tau. awak ni semua tahun berapa?"
then she started walking towards where i and my groupmates were standing. i walked away because i didn't want to listen to her rantings. she started talking to thin air as none of us were minding her at all. seriously, she looked like a crazed simian.
then, as she was still talking endlessly (i am pretty sure she has mouth diarrhea), i walked to my mate while she was clerking. i wanted to ask her a question, not to join her clerking that patient. but S/N batuapi still want to find fault.
"haaa...tak boleh nak clerk patient lebih dari seorang ye. kenapa nak clerk 2-3 orang ni?"
we just ignored her and i walked away after asking my mate the question. i passed S/N batuapi. she was still talking and it is pretty obvious that she wanted me to answer her. but i just let her talk. then another mate of mine asked: "apa hal ni?"
me (in an audible tone for S/N batuapi to hear): "she wants to talk, let her talk la"
*snicker snicker snicker*
the weird part was, when we looked at the case sheets, she told us off. but when the STUDENT NURSES looked at them, she didn't say a single word about it. everywhere i went, she was there to check on me but of course on the pretence to look at something else or to mind the student nurses. i kept on ignoring her.
after awhile, we went to the seminar room. about 15mins later, she burst in the room:
"pukul 11 nanti you all tak boleh guna bilik ni ye. kami nak guna"
me: "ermm... kalau kami nak letak barang dalam ni (cupboard) boleh ke?"
S/N batuapi: "barang takpe la. tapi bilik ni tak boleh guna"
weiirrrdddd..... the last time i remembered, she was furious when we placed our bags inside the cupboard, now it's ok??!?!?! about the seminar room, it is clear that the room is booked for us at certain hours, she HAS to use it la... for what i also not sure leyy.....
i guess she really is onto me. even my other grp mates could see this and they were the one telling me: "eh, she really nak cari pasal with you kan?"
haiiisshhhh..... GROW UP ALREADY!
i buttoned up my labcoat. made sure that my steth were in place. made sure that my ID was showing. made sure that i have all my instruments for examination of patients.
wore the right shoes (as long as it is covered right?). but then again, i saw many other staffs, doctors, students wearing sandals to the hosp. so, what is wrong with my shoes eh?
i was doing my usual clerking, looking for interesting cases, minding my own ass business. what i didn't know was S/N batuapi was on the lookout for me. watching me like a hawk. trying to find my fault. since i didn't dress wrongly (as according to her and mr. pelik) today, she was waiting anxiously for me to do something wrong.
i went to one patient and opened up his case sheet. i did this cause previously the MO told me to do so. he said, apart from clerking, you should also look at the case sheet and see what kind of management and investigations that were carried out for that particular patient. that is how you should learn. but S/N batuapi caught me there. from about 50m away, she said at the audible level (read: loud):
"siapa kasi tengok case sheet tu? tak boleh tengok tau. awak ni semua tahun berapa?"
then she started walking towards where i and my groupmates were standing. i walked away because i didn't want to listen to her rantings. she started talking to thin air as none of us were minding her at all. seriously, she looked like a crazed simian.
then, as she was still talking endlessly (i am pretty sure she has mouth diarrhea), i walked to my mate while she was clerking. i wanted to ask her a question, not to join her clerking that patient. but S/N batuapi still want to find fault.
"haaa...tak boleh nak clerk patient lebih dari seorang ye. kenapa nak clerk 2-3 orang ni?"
we just ignored her and i walked away after asking my mate the question. i passed S/N batuapi. she was still talking and it is pretty obvious that she wanted me to answer her. but i just let her talk. then another mate of mine asked: "apa hal ni?"
me (in an audible tone for S/N batuapi to hear): "she wants to talk, let her talk la"
*snicker snicker snicker*
the weird part was, when we looked at the case sheets, she told us off. but when the STUDENT NURSES looked at them, she didn't say a single word about it. everywhere i went, she was there to check on me but of course on the pretence to look at something else or to mind the student nurses. i kept on ignoring her.
after awhile, we went to the seminar room. about 15mins later, she burst in the room:
"pukul 11 nanti you all tak boleh guna bilik ni ye. kami nak guna"
me: "ermm... kalau kami nak letak barang dalam ni (cupboard) boleh ke?"
S/N batuapi: "barang takpe la. tapi bilik ni tak boleh guna"
weiirrrdddd..... the last time i remembered, she was furious when we placed our bags inside the cupboard, now it's ok??!?!?! about the seminar room, it is clear that the room is booked for us at certain hours, she HAS to use it la... for what i also not sure leyy.....
i guess she really is onto me. even my other grp mates could see this and they were the one telling me: "eh, she really nak cari pasal with you kan?"
haiiisshhhh..... GROW UP ALREADY!
Friday, March 28, 2008
when life gives you mr. pelik, you make donno and become stronger
this was my whole get up when the STAFF NURSE commented on my way of dressing. which part of this is REVEALING??
March 26, 2008: Around 09:05 hours, while I was clerking a patient at bed 5 of ward K 1, Mr. pelik had come into the bay with the Medical Officers, Health Officers, Staff Nurses, and Student Nurses to make his routine ward round. As he entered, I backed away from my patient to give way to him and his team to do their work. When he came in and saw me, the first thing he said (obviously very loudly for everyone to hear) was:“Kenapa diaorang ni pelik aa? Pakai macam ni. Awak ni mmg memalukan profession betul. Awak ni ingat nak pergi disco ke? Awak pergi balik sekarang. Balik, tukar baju lepas tu baru datang balik.Awak keluar dari wad saya sekarang."
I walked out of the bay without looking at him.
“Ey, ey, awak keluar sekarang. Saya tak nak tengok muka awak dalam wad ni”.
I went out of the ward. I told my friend to SMS me or miss call me when Mr. pelik leaves the ward. So, when he finally left, I went back in ward K 1 to continue clerking patients and obviously to learn because the aim of posting in the hospital is so that we, as medical students, learn from the patients. As I was walking into the ward, S/N batuapi was talking to a group of students from the JPA program. I walked pass the group to go to the bays. But I was stopped by S/N Batuapi. This was how the conversation went:
S/N Batuapi:“Doctor pelik tak kasi awak masuk kan? Awak keluar sekarang. Get out of my ward”.
My reply: “Saya nak cari group mates saya sekejap”.
S/N Batuapi: “I said, get out of my ward now”.
My reply: “Saya nak cari group mates saya”.
S/N batuapi: “Lepas tu terus keluar”.
This conversation occurred in front of the JPA program students.
my get up on 27/3/08.
March 27, 2008: I was clerking my patient in bay 1- 4 of ward K 1, when I heard the conversation between Mr. pelik and S/N Batuapi regarding my presence in the ward yesterday even after I was told to leave the ward because I was dressed “inappropriately” according to them (Mr. pelik and S/N Batuapi). I also heard them entering the next bay (bay 5-8) to do their routine round. I walked out of my bay as I had done my clerking. As soon I stepped out of my bay, S/N batuapi called me:
“Dik, dik. Mari sini. Doctor nak jumpa”
I went to bay 5-8 to see Mr. pelik. This was how the conversation went:
Mr. pelik: “Semalam kenapa awak masuk balik dalam wad ni? Kan ke saya dah halau awak semalam? Awak keluar sekarang”
Me: “saya masuk balik semalam sebab doctor kami buat discussion dengan kami”
Mr. pelik: “tapi saya dah halau awak kan? Kenapa nak masuk balik?”
Me: “saya datang sini nak belajar. Apa salah saya kali ni?”
Mr. pelik: “ hari ni saya nak denda awak sebab semalam. pakai nampak pusat semua. Keluar sekarang!”
Me: “mana ada nampak pusat. tapi saya tak buat apa-apa kan hari ni? Kenapa pula nak halau saya”
Mr. pelik: “ saya kata saya nampak, saya nampak la. awak faham tak apa saya cakap? Faham tak? Faham tak?! Apa, awak nak saya tulis surat kepada dean awak ke? Saya cakap keluar sekarang, keluar la. GET OUT OF MY WARD NOW!”
*most of the time, he wasn’t even looking at me directly.
I just stood there in front of him. He was screaming at me until even the other ward staffs and student who were at the other end of the ward came running to the scene to see what was happening. Everyone who was there were listening and watching the scene. Then S/N batuapi grabbed my left arm, held my arm tightly and pulled me away to the main door. I pulled back my arm and said :
“takpe, saya boleh jalan sendiri”.
She said rudely: “awak keluar ye. Doctor dah suruh awak keluar kan”.
Before reaching the main door, I stopped to go into the seminar room to take my bag. But S/N batuapi shoved and pushed me towards the main door. I told her that I wanted to take my bag. So we went to the seminar room.
S/N batuapi: “ambil beg awak, lepas tu keluar”
Me: “apa salah saya? Saya pakai elok je kan hari ni?”
S/N batuapi: “awak dah buat doctor marah. Awak jangan nak buat saya marah pulak ye. Kami ada hak nak halau awak”
Me: “apa salah saya?”
She could not give me an answer. Then she frantically searched for my bag. She didn’t see the bag and said:
S/N batuapi: “awak ni penipu kan? Mana ada beg sini”.
Me: “beg ada dalam almari”.
S/N batuapi: “siapa kasi awak kebenaran untuk guna almari ni? Doctor pelik kalau tau ni, awak kena marah. Nak guna almari kena minta kebenaran”
Me: “takkan nak letak beg di luar almari? Nanti bersepah, kena marah juga kan?”
After I took my beg and started walking out of the seminar room, she grabbed my arm again to bring me to the main door. I pulled away saying: “takpe, saya boleh jalan sendiri”.
She opened the main door and pushed me out. I just walked away. But she said:
“keluar dulu, nanti bila doctor dah reda, awak masuk balik. Tunggu kat ruang rehat”.
Now I am confused. Right just now, she told Mr. pelik that I entered the ward again after I was told to leave the ward yesterday, hence why he is asking me to leave again today, to teach me a lesson. Now, she is asking me to come in after he leaves. What is her intention exactly?
“Dik, dik. Mari sini. Doctor nak jumpa”
I went to bay 5-8 to see Mr. pelik. This was how the conversation went:
Mr. pelik: “Semalam kenapa awak masuk balik dalam wad ni? Kan ke saya dah halau awak semalam? Awak keluar sekarang”
Me: “saya masuk balik semalam sebab doctor kami buat discussion dengan kami”
Mr. pelik: “tapi saya dah halau awak kan? Kenapa nak masuk balik?”
Me: “saya datang sini nak belajar. Apa salah saya kali ni?”
Mr. pelik: “ hari ni saya nak denda awak sebab semalam. pakai nampak pusat semua. Keluar sekarang!”
Me: “mana ada nampak pusat. tapi saya tak buat apa-apa kan hari ni? Kenapa pula nak halau saya”
Mr. pelik: “ saya kata saya nampak, saya nampak la. awak faham tak apa saya cakap? Faham tak? Faham tak?! Apa, awak nak saya tulis surat kepada dean awak ke? Saya cakap keluar sekarang, keluar la. GET OUT OF MY WARD NOW!”
*most of the time, he wasn’t even looking at me directly.
I just stood there in front of him. He was screaming at me until even the other ward staffs and student who were at the other end of the ward came running to the scene to see what was happening. Everyone who was there were listening and watching the scene. Then S/N batuapi grabbed my left arm, held my arm tightly and pulled me away to the main door. I pulled back my arm and said :
“takpe, saya boleh jalan sendiri”.
She said rudely: “awak keluar ye. Doctor dah suruh awak keluar kan”.
Before reaching the main door, I stopped to go into the seminar room to take my bag. But S/N batuapi shoved and pushed me towards the main door. I told her that I wanted to take my bag. So we went to the seminar room.
S/N batuapi: “ambil beg awak, lepas tu keluar”
Me: “apa salah saya? Saya pakai elok je kan hari ni?”
S/N batuapi: “awak dah buat doctor marah. Awak jangan nak buat saya marah pulak ye. Kami ada hak nak halau awak”
Me: “apa salah saya?”
She could not give me an answer. Then she frantically searched for my bag. She didn’t see the bag and said:
S/N batuapi: “awak ni penipu kan? Mana ada beg sini”.
Me: “beg ada dalam almari”.
S/N batuapi: “siapa kasi awak kebenaran untuk guna almari ni? Doctor pelik kalau tau ni, awak kena marah. Nak guna almari kena minta kebenaran”
Me: “takkan nak letak beg di luar almari? Nanti bersepah, kena marah juga kan?”
After I took my beg and started walking out of the seminar room, she grabbed my arm again to bring me to the main door. I pulled away saying: “takpe, saya boleh jalan sendiri”.
She opened the main door and pushed me out. I just walked away. But she said:
“keluar dulu, nanti bila doctor dah reda, awak masuk balik. Tunggu kat ruang rehat”.
Now I am confused. Right just now, she told Mr. pelik that I entered the ward again after I was told to leave the ward yesterday, hence why he is asking me to leave again today, to teach me a lesson. Now, she is asking me to come in after he leaves. What is her intention exactly?
Tell me now, how do you rate the severity of this situation? am i wrong in any way?
F/N:i have been in the posting for almost 4 months now. before i entered this ward, i was in another ward with even a more particular doc. i wore the same things what i wore then. but the doc never commented on my clothing. so, what makes the difference now? and mind you, this doc in the other ward, is the HEAD OF DEPARTMENT.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
sad + angry = tears
......literally....this is because, of what had happened in the hospital. today, the blahdy dr. pelik (not HOD, just simply pakar bedah) was doing his rounds today. i was dressed rather decently (or so i thought).
this was what i was wearing. something my ma have worn to many corporate meetings. it was a hand-me-down (more like me nabbing it from her cupboard) from her. i am sure this is rather decent as it was just stripes and i was wearing a university blouse. my labcoat was on me, and i wasn't showing any midriff flesh. so, what was wrong about my dressing??i was clerking my patient when dr. pelik came in with the other MOs and HOs and nurses. i walked away from my patient to make way for his team. the first thing that came out from his mouth was:
"kenapa derang ni pelik arr? pakai macam ni? awak ni mmg memalukan profession betul. awak ni ingat nak pergi disco ke? awak pergi balik, pergi tukar apa yang awak pakai ni. awak keluar dari wad saya sekarang."
he was saying more things that i can't quite phatom anymore. before he could finish, i just walked out without looking at his face, without even allowing him to talk to me anymore. as i was walking away i could hear him say:
"ey, ey" like calling me. i still walked off. "keluar dari wad saya sekarang, saya tak nak tengok muka awak kat dalam wad ni"
i don't want to see your face either jerk. let alone be in the same wad as you are.
i was so damn angry that he did this to me. this is really not professional. if he has problems with me, take me aside and talk to me nicely. if he were to reprimand me because of my lack of knowledge, i wouldn't mind, prolly i even deserve it. but, because of my dressing that was fairly decent? i can't take it at all!!
i went out of the ward. went to the staircase, called mama all the way.......
.....and out of nowhere, i started crying. i was shocked myself. even the matron that passed me in the staircase, turned back to console me. she was trying to ease me for about 3 mins but i assure her that i was ok, because i was with my mum on the phone. i didn't cry because dr. pelik scolded me, i don't even know why i was crying! i guess, it was more because i am too angry and too sad to see that they are these kind of people who are too low in their mentality level and still exist in this modern world.today, after more than 6 months (i think), i CRIED. i really did. i hate everything. thank GOD for mama..... she was the only one that made me feel so much better today......
please gimme some tips on what is accepted to be worn in this kind of mentality (read: government services).
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
GOOD BAD WORST
i woke up today at about 0515h (i don't know why, but this seems to be my new autowake time) eventhough i slept only at around 0000 previously, after a 16 and a half hour day. i can't complain much because it was a good day yesterday. we were on call and we had an adorable and yet very kind MO to guide us thru.
it is true if you want something, all you've got to do is ask. if it wasn't for me, we weould have been waiting, as bored as stone, in the ward and we will be presenting cases that we clerked. i didn't wanna do that as we did that already in the morning. so instead of waiting, i have decided to put up a face and asked the doctor if we could follow his rounds, and yeah, he agreed! we went to see many surgical cases and learned quite alot. but the most important lesson that i learned was: ASK.
as i was getting ready today, i got an unexpected call from an unknown number. my immediate reaction when i picked it up was: FLY FM.... (gawsh!!! i am like so into this CA$H CALL thingy that sometimes, i even call myself from other fons just for the sake of a trial run. most of the word that come out from my mouth these days, either rhyme with FLY FM or has anything to do with FLY FM. hell! i was even hooked on my radio mobile while i was clerking my patients!)
to my surprise, the producer of THE PAGI SHOW on FLY FM called me. but to my disappointment, it wasn't the cash call. nevertheless, i was put thru to FABES and BEN. they wanted me to give a morning shout out. since i know for sure that no one important to me was awake at that hour of time, i ended up just chatting with the guys and of course, that was a good start to my day. thanks for the call guys! perhaps you could call me later for the CA$H CALL? i have been texting since FOREVER.....
i am so determined to get thru to the WAKE UP YOUR BRAIN jig. right after the FIX IT, i dialled immediately, non-stop, my determination was on full throttle. when i finally got thru, i was super excited that i nearly blew an artery in my head! my adrenaline was rushing like mad and my mood level was: EXTREMELY HIGH..... but all that was just for less than a minute tho, when i found out that......
it is true if you want something, all you've got to do is ask. if it wasn't for me, we weould have been waiting, as bored as stone, in the ward and we will be presenting cases that we clerked. i didn't wanna do that as we did that already in the morning. so instead of waiting, i have decided to put up a face and asked the doctor if we could follow his rounds, and yeah, he agreed! we went to see many surgical cases and learned quite alot. but the most important lesson that i learned was: ASK.
as i was getting ready today, i got an unexpected call from an unknown number. my immediate reaction when i picked it up was: FLY FM.... (gawsh!!! i am like so into this CA$H CALL thingy that sometimes, i even call myself from other fons just for the sake of a trial run. most of the word that come out from my mouth these days, either rhyme with FLY FM or has anything to do with FLY FM. hell! i was even hooked on my radio mobile while i was clerking my patients!)
to my surprise, the producer of THE PAGI SHOW on FLY FM called me. but to my disappointment, it wasn't the cash call. nevertheless, i was put thru to FABES and BEN. they wanted me to give a morning shout out. since i know for sure that no one important to me was awake at that hour of time, i ended up just chatting with the guys and of course, that was a good start to my day. thanks for the call guys! perhaps you could call me later for the CA$H CALL? i have been texting since FOREVER.....
i am so determined to get thru to the WAKE UP YOUR BRAIN jig. right after the FIX IT, i dialled immediately, non-stop, my determination was on full throttle. when i finally got thru, i was super excited that i nearly blew an artery in my head! my adrenaline was rushing like mad and my mood level was: EXTREMELY HIGH..... but all that was just for less than a minute tho, when i found out that......
.....CURTAINS is not the answer to the question: 29% of household do not have what? aiiiyaaarrrkkk! how la like that. you are not specific as to this survey is localised where. geographical area demands different household items. could someone PLEASE gimme some answers so that i can try again.... then we share share arrr.... (^^)
then, it was off the hospital i went, with the earpiece connected to FLY FM still stuck in my left pinna (that's ear lobe for you guys). i was minding my own stuff, learning, doing what the MO told me to do (which was observe the basic things and build your way up), when suddenly a BITCHY staff NURSE had this conversation with me (loudly), infront of some patients, my groupmate, and the family members of the patients:
S/N: ni apa pakai seluar macam ni?
me: *blur
S/N: ni nak jadi doctor ka nak jadi apa? nak bergaya2 datang wad. bukan gaya doctor pakai macam ni
me: *silently..... habis tu, doctor pakai macam mana? selekeh ke?
S/N: lain kali nak datang hospital, takyah nak pakai macam ni. kalau tak, jangan datang. doctor rahide dan doctor haridass tak nampak lagi ni (padahal the day before, i was wearing a diamante studded blouse infront of dr. rashide and he didn't say anything about it). esok jangan pakai macam ni. apa nak jadi ni?
me: ....WTF?? bitch.....
PLEASE tell me: WHAT IN HELL IS WRONG WITH WEARING THIS PANTS TO THE HOSPITAL?
all these while, no one said anything about this pants. not even the HOD of medicine. what made this S/N so worked up? ENLIGHTEN me.......please
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