Friday, February 29, 2008

I didn't know 39 of these. how many did you know?

1. If you are right handed, you will tend to chew your food on your right side. If you are left handed, you will tend to chew your food on your left side.

2. If you stop getting thirsty, you need to drink more water. For when a human body is dehydrated, its thirst mechanism shuts off. (i am rather doubtful about this one....)

3. Chewing gum while peeling onions will keep you from crying.

4. Your tongue is germ free only if it is pink. If it is white there is a thin film of bacteria on it.

5. The Mercedes-Benz motto is “Das Beste oder Nichts” meaning “the best or nothing”.

6. The Titanic was the first ship to use the SOS signal.

7. The pupil of the eye expands as much as 45 percent when a person looks at something pleasing.

8. The average person who stops smoking requires one hour less sleep a night.

9. Laughing lowers levels of stress hormones and strengthens the immune system. Six-year-olds laugh an average of 300 times a day. Adults only laugh 15 to 100 times a day.

10. The roar that we hear when we place a seashell next to our ear is not the ocean, but rather the sound of blood surging through the veins in the ear. (really?!?!?!)

11. Dalmatians are born without spots.

12. Bats always turn left when exiting a cave.

13. The ‘v’ in the name of a court case does not stand for ‘versus’, but for ‘and’ (in civil proceedings) or ‘against’ (in criminal proceedings).

14. Men’s shirts have the buttons on the right, but women’s shirts have the buttons on the left.

15. The owl is the only bird to drop its upper eyelid to wink. All other birds raise their lower eyelids.

16. The reason honey is so easy to digest is that it’s already been digested by a bee.

17. Roosters cannot crow if they cannot extend their necks.

18. The color blue has a calming effect. It causes the brain to release calming hormones.

19. Every time you sneeze some of your brain cells die.

20. Your left lung is smaller than your right lung to make room for your heart.

21. The verb “cleave” is the only English word with two synonyms which are antonyms of each other: adhere and separate.

22. When you blush, the lining of your stomach also turns red.

23. When hippos are upset, their sweat turns red.

24. The first Harley Davidson motorcycle was built in 1903, and used a tomato can for a carburetor.

25. The lion that roars in the MGM logo is named Volney.

26. Google is actually the common name for a number with a million zeros.

27. Switching letters is called spoonerism. For example, saying jag of Flapan, instead of flag of Japan.

28. It cost 7 million dollars to build the Titanic and 200 million to make a film about it.

29. The attachment of the human skin to muscles is what causes dimples.

30. There are 1,792 steps to the top of the Eiffel Tower.

31. The sound you hear when you crack your knuckles is actually the sound of nitrogen gas bubbles bursting.

32. Human hair and fingernails continue to grow after death.

33. It takes about 20 seconds for a red blood cell to circle the whole body.

34. The plastic things on the end of shoelaces are called aglets.

35. Most soccer players run 7 miles in a game.

36. The only part of the body that has no blood supply is the cornea in the eye. It takes in
oxygen directly from the air.

37. Every day 200 million couples make love, 400,000 babies are born, and 140,000 people die.

38. In most watch advertisements the time displayed on the watch is 10:10 because then the arms frame the brand of the watch (and make it look like itis smiling).

39. Colgate faced big obstacle marketing toothpaste in Spanish speaking countries. Colgate translates into the command “go hang yourself.”

40. The only 2 animals that can see behind itself without turning its head are the rabbit and the parrot.

41. Intelligent people have more zinc and copper in their hair.

42. The average person laughs 13 times a day.

43. Do you know the names of the three wise monkeys? They are:Mizaru(See no evil), Mikazaru(Hear no evil), and Mazaru(Speak no evil)

44. Women blink nearly twice as much as men.

45. German Shepherds bite humans more than any other breed of dog.

46. Large kangaroos cover more than 30 feet with each jump.

47. Whip makes a cracking sound because its tip moves faster than the speed of sound.

48. Two animal rights protesters were protesting at the cruelty of sending pigs to a slaughterhouse in Bonn. Suddenly the pigs, all two thousand of them, escaped through a broken fence and stampeded, trampling the two hapless protesters to death.

49. If a statue in the park of a person on a horse has both front legs in the air, the person died in battle; if the horse has one front leg in the air, the person died as a result of wounds received in battle; if the horse has all four legs on the ground, the person died of natural cause.

50. The human heart creates enough pressure while pumping to squirt blood 30 feet!!

you know you are a doctor when your patient's happyness comes first before you.

i just got back to my abode from a 17 hours 30 minutes, non-stop, day yesterday. i was almost drained of energy and will but thanks to saras' coffee fix, coke lite, and of course, my patients' needs and happyness, i made it thru.

i have always thought that i have to make myself happy inorder to make others happy. this still applies. but right now, no matter how i have been bashed by the HOD or the poyo M.Os, i have to have a thick face and be cool about it. i musn't show any sadness infront of my patients. gladly, i managed to master this part of the trick of this trade called MEDICAL HEALTH CARE.

i had a patient, mr. MFH, 20 year old male who came in suspected of bronchitis. but as we examined him further, he had something else which he did not mention to the doctors. told him like a gazillion times to mention it the next time he is checked, but he never did it. nevertheless, he came in with a grave face, but when he was discharged yesterday afternoon, he looked so happy. we gave him a good company and we made him feel like a person who is very important to us. the cute part was, he noticed that i changed my nose stud colour, how observant! he took pictures of me and saras as he was leaving and he had a heavy heart to see us leave him for his final lunch before discharging. the important thing is: he is HAPPY.

my patient that i saw last nite, mr. AS, came in with diabetic complications, 49 y.o. the last time i saw him was last year, and now, i see him again. he looked no better than the last, and i was terribly concerned about him depsite the fact that i was really tired. i put up a great smile for him and asked him if he remembers me: he does. he was glad to see me again and i was glad to see him too, but of course, i told him that i want to see him, not in the hospital. i want to see him well. he is currently on dialysis, and mind you, it is really expensive. as he is not a working man, i was talking to him about some places that he could go and get dialysed for a little less payment. i want to see him HAPPY, i want to see him being VIBRANT, i want to see him SMILE. we were talking while my legs are screaming of lethargy.
he wants me to look for him the next time i go to hosp. i promised him i will. i'll do my best to see him. i want to make his day. now, i am searching for info for him so that his burden could be lessen.

there are many other patients that need attention. the sad thing is that, many health care personnels do not see this. they see them as work, something to be done, not something to care for.

my happyness is nowhere near my priority, my patients' are.

Monday, February 25, 2008

post (septic) SHOCK haiku

It feels right when I am in your arms, It feels wrong when I am in love.

when i am in your hug
everything seems so right
like the happiness is endless.

then the tingles start
the butterfly flutters
the love starts to creep in.
it can't be
because then it all falls out
it all becomes weird.
no more care
i got sidelined
or am i just being me, PARANOID?

feels right
feels wrong
love is too complicated.
i got EMOed like 2 seconds ago. seriously, this has nothing to do with me. but not bad for a first try at haiku eh?

i don't KNEAD bread

the first time i saw this NO KNEAD BREAD recipe, i was excited to the bone! simpy because the recipe does not require any additional fat! i made (forced actually), yah to help me (do it all) make the bread. after much sweet talking (coaxing), she managed to open her heart (at gun point) into joining me in this culinary experiment.

first proofing stage that took 12hours. she started off at 1000, so the next step was at 2200.

we (she), baked the bread at about 2330, after we came back from a session of body combat. i was so hungry and tired all at the same time and i know that i shudn't be eating this at this time of nigth. but what the heck.... i didn't have anything for dinner and i was HUNGRY.....

this was how the bread ended up looking like. purrdy, ain't it?

the cut section (sound so pathological) has massive air holes, homogenous, ivory in colour and soft in consistency. you MUST eat it fresh to taste the deliciousness of it. sadly, all at home were sleeping already. so, i managed to get it fresh. yah had it the next day and she insisted that we did something wrong. i still like it though. all it need is to be kept in the fridge, and when you want to eat it, cut the desired portion, double toast it in the toaster (toast it twice) or heat it up in the oven, and voila! you get a crisp bread similar to crutons but with fluffy interior.

full recipe at:

have fun trying!

wednesday: death note.

currently i am posting in the medical ward, and sadly, yes sadly, i was made the group leader by the head of medical department dr. SD. everyone who is working under her, with her, above her, alongside her, knows what kind of person she is: SCARY. it is like she wants things to go only one way: HER WAY. whatever we all feel or think, does not register to her. HER WAY is the ONLY way.

she is very damn particular about the timing that we are in the wards. she wants us to be in before 0800 and be out only after 1230 (according to her watch). but the thing is, we have to make the second rush back to campus while trying hard to avoid the lunch traffic (yes, this place HAS traffic). sometimes, our campus class starts at 1300, sometimes, 1400. how can we manage to get back on time right? and the classes are till 1700! crazy.....

because of this (and also because we have clerked and examine patients), we tend to leave the wards early as our attending doctors allow us to go. but this creates a problem with dr. SD as according to her watch and time wasting effort, she wants us to be in the wards.

she has called the group leaders, meaning me and 2 others, to meet her for a good smackdown on wednesday morning. best part: after the smackdown, my group will be attended by her. she spells evil and everyone is afraid of her, not respect her for who she is.

so, this wednesday, i have to be on somekind of high to withstand her. i want to be so euphoric that i cudn't give any shaite about what hell she's gonna give us.....

help me.....

Sunday, February 24, 2008

There are so MANY things you can do in 12 hours.

23rd of FEB, 2008: the day started off by me going for the kam cheong 'thingy' somewhere in bandar utama. i was kinda nervous and kinda too hopeful to get it. i signed in at the auxillary police post and got the PELAWAT sticker.

the first sign in was to get into the compound. i was told to go to the lobby of the main building. there, there was the second sign in. i was given a consent form to be signed for release and some of my mugshots were taken so that they know where to put the name to the face.
then, while waiting, of course the quintessential thing that we MUST do....camwhorring....

after the thingy was done, we went to pick up our newly welcomed (but it feels like we've known each other way longer than that! amazing!) aunty for the FAMILY (yes, she is family) trip to janda baik. i have been wanting to go there since i knew about the place. mama said that she was going there today with aunt A. i was in campus that time and i felt so sad that i cudn't come. but because of the thingy that i mentioned earlier, i made myself come back for this weekend and boy, am i glad! i killed (not literally tho...) 2 birds with one stone!
on the way to aunt fred's (that's frederique, because she is french) and uncle zaini's place, we made a pitstop at simpang tiga to get some kuehs for an afternoon tea with them. of course, i didn't have any of the kuehs but according to some claims (mama and sisters), the goreng pisang and goreng cempedak were the best that they ever had! lucky them.....(-_-")

as we reached aunty fred's and uncle zaini's place, only one word could describe it: ASTONISHING!. being a nature junkie, i was immediately taken away from any other thoughts (very little actually...) that were on my mind. i was amazed by the beauty of the place and moreover, i was amazed by the hospitality that they had given us for our short stopby. the place is like very kampung and very zen. there are a few streams that are running on the grounds, a small pond, some chalets that are built on high stilts, fruit trees that are so tempting (durian, pulasan, guava, durian belanda, limau purut....many more), floras that you can only imagine ever existed until you actually see them. the hospitality....gawsh!!! they are the most amazing couple you have ever seen! they are so selamba and yet so accomodating. we had some french tea and fruits and kuehs and of course a whole load of laughter: just what the doctor ordered. i was practically running around in the compound, feasting my eyes with the amazing sights. it is the simplest, no-nonsense kind of place you could ever get. if you are into nature and you just need a place to bunk in when you are in janda baik, this is THE place. it is better to go into the jungle with uncle zaini than any other 'jungle guides' cause he is very honest with his work (passion, actually). check out for more!!

we were reluctant to leave their place but the time was pressing us on. we moved on to see the orang asli and see how they progressed in their daily lives and projects. the first place we went to was the fishpond project, run by ani and pak ram. they even had goats there. i am not a goat person at all. but nevertheless, i carried one in my hands and felt all nice inside. we even helped to feed the fishes. walking around the compound, there were not many to see, but the feeling of being able to lend a helping hand and making their day better was priceless. after this stop, we went to a few more houses to drop some things and to talk to other orang asli. when i see them, i felt that i am so little (not physically tho...), so useless, most LUCKY. the lives that they live is nothing compared to what we are used to. we think that what we have is not enough, we want more. we become greedy, we become selfish, we become ungrateful. but they, the orang asli, they strive to live, they are very content with what they have. i hope and wish that i could help them more. materially, maybe not so. but i would like to try to educate them, make their children literare, make their lives more productive. that is just me.... i want to help.

as the day draws to a darker sky... we moved on to make our trip home.

....of course, we can't just drive home.... we had to make this stop at the kampung cina to get some really2 great produce. i didn't know that pahang has passion fruit growing on its ground. so, as a culinary experience for this trip (actually, there was one earlier in the afternoon but i wouldn't want to write about it now as i do not have any pictures for it. my fon was on the life line: low batt. but IT WILL DEFINITELY GET A SPACE ON MY BLOG. just wait for it), we tried the passion fruit, a little sour tho cause it wasn't that ripe at the moment. and there was this weird looking thing that aunt A named it as 'buah RIBENA'. it is good for detoxifying purposes (but isn't everything else is nowadays?). we tried that as well and our sour sensation nearly went kaput because the thing was SUPER sour!!! then again, whatever that is good for your body, is never good for your some, loose some...
i came out of the house at about 0930 and came back in at around 2130. 12 whole hours that felt
like 2 minutes when you are having tonnes of fun!
i can't wait for the next trip there or where ever that aunty A is planning to bring us. from now on, ADVENTURE will be registered as my middle name \(^_^*)/

Friday, February 22, 2008

on call or off9 or whatever, this is my DAILY ROUTINE from now on.

Since the new academic year starts, i have been trying to get into the routine ASAP. i got back a day later than the rest, and oh my! i feel totally lost. the next day, the HOD of the medical department made me the group leader out of her own judgement (i am so not proud of this. really, if you know her, you'd rather be no one that she knew of). i didn't know what was coming till it hit me. the responsibilities and the assignments that i have to make sure that are on par were way beyond what i can handle. but i am trying, seriously i am.

so lemme tell you how my daily routine goes. i can never run away from this unless there is a cancellation in the schedule (which will be replaced later, and hog the whole day's schedule, sometimes up to 7pm!).

initially, i woke up at 6am and found myself rushing for time. so i decided to wake up at 0545 (yes, 15minutes does alot of difference!!) to avoid the rush. but nowadays, i automatically wake up at 0430, but i force myself to get more shut eye till i can't stand it anymore. so, nowadays, i am on autowake at 0530.

i get ready, pack my stuffs, have my breakfast.

by 0700, i talk the WALK. actually, i could take the walk at 0715, but that would require me to rush out. since i wanna take in the morning air (actually, conserving energy, more like), i take a slower walk, while hooked on the radio, listening to the DJs, making me smile (sometimes...).

my walk out is to BBP's place, which is beside the campus compound.

i make it a point to reach at the meeting point for the WAIT, early. this is cause i hate making ppl wait for me, and a note to all: i hate waiting for ppl too. i'll wait for about 10mins till BBP comes round in his car.
then, we make our way to the hospital. we are to be in by 0815, that is when the doc-in-charge is to take our attendance. and since i am the grp leader, i have to be in prior to any1 else (does not usually happen this way...). our ward is on the 6th floor. for another morning ex, i would take the stairs up. good for the heart, bad for my flailing knee.....

as soon as we are in, the CLERKING and EXAMINING starts. this will go on till the doctor that is supposed to take us for consultations, comes. so, i'd be buzy (on my feet) for sometimes up to 3 and a half hours doing this. sometimes, we'll talk to the patients to boost their emotions. take some blood, measure some temps, check some BPs...those routine sorts....

when i can't take it anymore, i'd have a little sit-down and read something (or at least pretend to so that the HOD won't catch me being redundant).

in comes the doc. this is the CONSULTATION session, where the students will have a discussion with the doctor on the cases that were available. bedside sessions are also done to ensure a hands-on experience.

the hospital should be over by 1230 or slightly earlier or much later.....

the the second rush begins: to the campus.

sometimes, campus classes starts at 1300 (which gives us no time for lunch break. so, i would stop by the roadside to get nangka, then rush back to the hostel and gulp down some coke light. good combo eh??) or if we are "lucky" at 1400. then it'll go on till 1700. but on mondays, thursday, and fridays, my class will finish at 1930 because i have to take the religious class, it is MANDATORY.

after the classes end.... my adrenaline rush needs some pumping.

so what do i do? i hit the GYM. this is the only ME time that i actually have. this is where i have my thoughts on something else other than my studies (but actually, it all ends up with me thinking of what i must know for the next session of studies...haiiisshhhh....).

gym goes on for approx 1 and a half hour. then, it is back to my hostel, cook my dinner, have my dinner. do my chores (laundry, dish washing). do my assigments. some (literally!) studying. surfing the net in between and chatting with mama or jo-ee or khalid (recently it was UTS DEV VAL!!! miss you babes).

this goes on till whenever i can fall asleep (i suffer from insomnia. i can't afford to take them pills on my workdays cause i can't be sleepy in the morn), usually.... it is about 0030 or a little over 0100.

then..... the whole cycle starts again.... + some minor adjustments (which allows me to steal an hour and 15mins nap: just ONCE!, in the afternoon).

if i have on call nights, this means i would be awake for 19hours straight (this happened to me just last nite), and yet, i still can't get a decent sleep.....eventhough i am at home now.

this will be the routine of my life, and i'm loving it! (NOT!)

Sunday, February 17, 2008 broke my HYPOTHALAMUS....

recently, i have done (compilation) researches (of course i did some reading too, not blindly copy + paste the articles) on the science of love. it is amazing as to how we have been wrong all this while thinking that our heart plays a major role in the feeling of love. sorry to burst your bubbles, but that is so not true.

the overused heart icon in terms of love, functions medically and of course logically, only to pump blood to the whole body. it serves as an engine running the human machine. it maintains the pressure, maintains the oxygen profusion of tissues, and of course it is very2 vital. but as compared to the brain, the heart falls in 2nd place.

you can have someone who has a perfectly working heart but that person is brain dead. no point, that person can't communicate with you, can't show any reactions, can't think, that person has become an 'IT' or on a more simple layman term: a vegetable. no feelings, no thoughts, nothing. physically it is there, emotionally, it has died.

the real location where we feel comes from the HYPOTHALAMUS. this is the part of the brain which is vital when someone is in love. let it be love between lovers, parent and child, siblings....anything. there are a series of chemicals that are released when you are in love and when you cuddle, there are another set of chems that starts to flood your hypothalamus. this is actually where you recognize the feeling of LOVE.

so, next time when you are said to be "heartbroken", think again. the correct sentence would be: "i am hypothalamusbroken". yeah, it is a bit (alot!) tounge twisting, but it worth the say to express what you feel.

their HYPOTHALAMI are broken.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

press 9 for diet tips (i hope it works, for me at least)

Who ever says that dieting is easy, that person needs to be sent to an ASYLUM ASAP! seriously, what is dieting actually? mindful eating? calorie counting? portion controlling? eating the "right' food? moderation? aiisshhh.... i think, dieting is like beauty, it is in the belly of the beholder. nevertheless, these are some key tips to keep those weights at the correct par. so, good luck!
Tip No. 1: Drink plenty of water or other calorie-free beverages.
Before you tear into that bag of potato chips (or after, so that you feel less guilty. roooiiiiiggghhhtttt....), drink a glass of water first. People sometimes confuse thirst with hunger (this is true. i applied this to meself), so you can end up eating extra calories when an ice-cold (burns more cals than warm water) glass of water is really all you needed. If plain water doesn't cut it, try drinking flavored sparkling water or brewing a cup of fruit-infused herbal tea.
DRINK! by hook or by crook (just be mindful of the source yeah. we don't wanna end up with diarrhea!!)
Tip No. 2: Be choosy about nighttime snacks.(do not ignore your hunger at ANY TIME at all!)
Mindless eating occurs most frequently after dinner, when you finally sit down and relax. Snacking in front of the TV is one of the easiest ways to throw your diet (if ever you were on one) off course. Either close down the kitchen (under nuts and bolts if you really can't control yourself) after a certain hour, or allow yourself a low-calorie snack, like a 100-calorie pack of cookies or a half-cup scoop of low-fat ice cream, or fruits (not durian or bananas or avocados).
down everything you ever desired to snack on before you start the mindful snacking regime. heheheheh this is so discouraging, eh?
Tip No. 3: Enjoy your favorite foods. (really?)
Instead of cutting out your favorite foods altogether, be a slim (how i wish....) shopper. Buy one fresh bakery cookie instead of a box, or a small portion of candy from the bulk bins instead of a whole bag. You can still enjoy your favorite foods — the key is moderation (mama's fav quote. she should have it registered).
i heart cereals
Tip No. 4: Eat several mini-meals during the day.
If you eat fewer calories than you burn, you'll lose weight. But when you're hungry all the time, eating fewer calories can be a challenge. "Studies show people who eat 4-5 meals or snacks per day are better able to control their appetite and weight," says obesity researcher Rebecca Reeves, DrPH, RD. She recommends dividing your daily calories into smaller meals or snacks and enjoying most of them earlier in the day (have breakfast like a KING!! well, i know i do...) — dinner should be the last time you eat.
mini lamb cutlets: nak buat taik gigi pun tak cukup ni...
Tip No. 5: Eat protein at every meal.
Protein is the ultimate fill-me-up food — it's more satisfying than carbs or fats (and less guilty) and keeps you feeling full for longer. It also helps preserve muscle mass and encourages fat burning. So be sure to incorporate healthy proteins like lean meat, yogurt, cheese, nuts, or beans (i live and breath soy, especially edamame!!!) into your meals and snacks.
protein, meet friend. friend, meet protein.
Tip No. 6: Spice it up. (some like it hot!)
++ spices or chillies to your food for a flavor boost that can help you feel satisfied. "Food that is loaded with flavor will stimulate your taste buds and be more satisfying, so you won't eat as much," says American Dietetic Association spokeswoman Malena Perdomo, RD. When you need something sweet, suck on a red-hot fireball candy. It's sweet, spicy, and low in calories. Plus the heat that is generated by heat-producing spices actually increases the metabolic rate!
Chillies: hate them, love them. simply put, i can't live without them.
Tip No. 7: Stock your kitchen with healthy convenience foods.
Having ready-to-eat (healthy) snacks and meals-in-minutes on hand sets you up for success. You'll be less likely to hit the drive-through or call in a pizza order if you can throw together a healthy meal in five or 10 minutes. Here are some essentials to keep on hand: frozen vegetables, whole-grain pasta, reduced-fat cheese, canned tomatoes, canned beans, pre-cooked grilled chicken breast, whole grain tortillas or pitas, and bags of salad greens.
my (dream) pantry: filled with dried soy beans, tonnes of cereals, powdered skim milk, fruits, diet sodas.

Tip No. 8: Order children's portions at restaurants. (even if you are 87!)
Ordering a child-size entree is a great way to cut calories and keep your portions reasonable. This has become such a popular trend that most servers won't bat an eye when you order off the kids' menu. Another trick is to use smaller plates. This helps the portions look like more, and if your mind is satisfied, your stomach likely will be, too. Use small utensils too, it actually make you think that you are eating more than enough.
Carl's Junior anyone?

Tip No. 9: Swap a cup of pasta for a cup of vegetables.

Simply by eating less pasta or bread and more veggies, you could lose a dress or pants size in a year. "You can save from 100-200 calories if you reduce the portion of starch on your plate and increase the amount of vegetables," says Cynthia Sass, RD, a spokeswoman for the American Dietetic Association.

i like veggies. so, no prob for me. great recipes at

.....lemme know if it works.....(-_-")

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

This is no LOVEing matter

14th february 2008, according to my computer clock, it is about 1 hour and 22 minutes away. then, it would be THE day, the MOST celebrated day of the year by all the people in love, in like, in crush, in flirt, in affair, in non-exclusively dating, in exclusively dating, in secretly dating, in mutually dating, in anything to do with the feeling of wanted and wanting.

let it rain LOVE tomorrow. everyone prays that the world had more LOVE than hate or jealousy. but as for me, i just keep on living my life as it is....single, i mean. to tell you the truth, i am afraid to be in love, but i want to. how contradicting right? it is as if i'd rather be parachuting (which i want to do before i turn a year older) than taking the risk to fall in love, all over again.

i am afraid to admit the feeling that i feel inside. is it so hard? i always wonder.... i used to be able to say it in a heartbeat (if ever i had one) to someone i thought i fancied. that was the major ass problem, it felt right at that moment, 2 days later, i was like "shaites, why hasn't he called? he hates me....". i get all paranoid and stupid. so, what makes it any easier for me to admit (if ever) i have feelings for anyone? nothing, i guess. i just keep on selling the hardcore facade of me to the outer world, when the inside, deep inside, i am just screaming to let (something) out.

i guess i'd better wait. it is true that when you least expect it, it will come. you know when it is right when you don't doubt'll be more exciting then, it'll be more promising (how i wish).

...but then again, when it comes to this shaite called LOVE, i am an accident just waiting to happen. more like a trainwreck, where it turns out to be hell in the end. i don't want that to happen, see.

what shall i do? what shall i feel?

wait, simply just wait.

Happy VALENTINE'S Day Everyone.... *hugs*