never torn between two men

aku baru balik daripada kuching semalam. aku tau, dah berapa hari aku tak hapdate ni kan. rasa macam tertunggak byk kerja lak. semalam asal sampai aja, dah start kemas barang. biasa la gi sana, beli bakul la, hamper la, menda la. mama soh aku kemas photo albums yang dah lama tak berkemas tu. jadi aku pun start la kemas. sambil2 kemas tu, usha2 la sket gambar2 lama.....

and then aku ternampak....


...gambar ni, just a few days after i was born. aku bukan emo ke apa, but i actually cried after tgk gambar ni. to the left is arwah atok aku, tok brahim. he is my everything, really. aku cuma sempat hidup ngan dia 3 tahun aja, and then he left us. tapi amazingly, dengan kuasa tuhan, aku ingat most of the time spent with him. and only i can see the sweet memories playing on rewind in my head.

to the right, is my Abah, my grandad on mama's side. he is in new zealand sekarang tgh visiting his cicit. he has the most sabar with me and i love him endlessly. sekarang he is so weak due to old age. i haven't been spending time with him and i feel really guilty. i miss him badly....

between these 2 men, there is no such thing as who do i love more. i love them equally, and i love them more than anyone else.
"marlyne rindu sangat kat atok ngan abah"

please sedekah your Al-Fatihah to my Arwah Atok Ibrahim bin Ismail and doakan kesihatan my Abah, Haji Shaari Md Dom. Amin....

haaa... yang terselit kat bawah nyibuk stealing my limelight tu, tu la dia Pott @ my elder brother. kepoh seyy....