no more

call me disgusting, but i have been sleeping with the same blanket since 3 weeks ago. reason being, i can't bear to wash it because it smells of nana. at the back of my head, her smell (or what is left of it) on the blanket made me feel that she is here. yes, i am delusional.

but today, i had to put the blanket in the laundry, it's been too long already. it will soon be ready, and when it comes out of the washer, it won't smell like her anymore. it'll smell like maxkleen 9 and AVA ocean spray fabric softener. no more nana.

i thought the day won't get any worse, but it did.

i went for a great morning jog today. as soon as i got back, i got into the shower. same old routine. but after shower, while i was drying my hair, i felt around at my neck area. i could feel the string that i made into a necklace to hold the owl pendant that i recently bought in mv the other day. although, i couldn't feel the pendant resting on my suprasternal notch. hmmm... that is weird. i thought maybe it moved to the nape of my neck. i felt around for it. it's not there! eff!

it's gone.....

no more owl necklace.

2 things gone in one day....what else?