The difference

I'm towards the end of my current posting now and oh yeah, it changed my views on Medicine, like seriously.

I used to be afraid and worried that I won't perform well in Medical posting as I am really not a medical person. I am a more hands-on person, more surgical. More, what is there, is there. Not a person that loves to solve puzzles, like the scenarios that usually occurs in medical departments.

But a whole lot of my views changed throughout this almost 4 months that I am here. Honestly, I am beginning to like medicine. Like yeah, seriously.

One of the many reasons that I like medicine is because of the bosses. Yeah, the bosses here are kinda cool and acceptable. What I meant by acceptable is that they (most of them, at least) really do appreciate your opinions and the things that you do. In fact, they love to hear your input so that they can teach you more if you are less knowledgeable in that field.

The bosses treat you like friends, that's nice. Really, it just boosts your confidence in so many ways possible. And yeah, no matter how friendly they are, you just know that they are still your boss, and you respect them, nevertheless.

The other thing in medicine that I like most is that you are allowed to be really hands on. Like for reals, I thought that surgical was procedures, procedures, and procedures, which is true by the way. But most of the procedures are done by the bosses and as a HO, you can't do much but assist. And only that, assist. But in medical, you are allowed to give it a try, of course under the supervision of the bosses. And yeah, once again, that pushes your confidence to a whole new level.

Well, I don't know. I still have a few more days left before I end this post, God willing.

Seriously, I am kinda missing it already.

Exactly!

Wild me

OK, so what if I have like 10 piercings on each ear?
OK, so what if I have RED hair?
OK, so what if I don't wear the hijab?
OK, so what if I don't speak the local language that fluent?

Does that make me different?
Of course it does.

Does that give you the right to call me a social butterfly (i.e too social) kind of girl?
No, that ain't right.

Get to know me first before you judge me. At least I know I am true to myself and I don't talk behind people, I tell them straight to their faces.

Especially for you

This morning, my BB Devil signaled that I got mail. When I checked the mail, it was a notification that I have a comment for one of my entry in this blog. So because it was such a special comment, I have decided to make an entry out of it.

This was the comment:
"If you have any problems pertaining to the school, why don't you speak to me personally. Why are you tarnishing my name for your convenience. How will feel if someone does that to you when you are working. Put yourself in other people's shoes and feel it yourself. Your attitude need to change too. You should not even think of damaging other people's reputation as we are all humans and your Islamic teachings has also taught you this if I am not mistaken. Try to more calm when blogging. "

And here is my comment for that comment:

Dear fissure in ano AKA anonymous,

First of all, did we even speak when I was there? I have no friggin' idea who you are.

I do not have a problem or problems pertaining to the school as I did not and do not go there. The problem that I encountered was the hostility that was conveyed to me by the people that are working there. Well, to be honest and fair, not all of the people are as hostile and vile as the ones that i mentioned in my earlier post. For example, at least the Bangladeshi guards were nice enough to let me park at the preferred parking area while I go about business in the school. Also, the lady at the reception at the lobby, she was really nice to me to guide me to where I wanted to go. See, I don't trash them, because they are NICE.

Excuse me for saying this, but honey, it is really not convenient for me to trash anyone in my blog, let alone trashing you. It does take some time to write and wait for ideas to come to compose entries in blogs, you know. Convenience is further than the North Pole for me in this matter. Considering the fact that I get off work late and tired and out of ideas, this, my friend, is hard work.

Anonymous, it is easy to tell me to put myself in other people's shoes, or your shoes in this matter, to know how it feels. Well, let me ask you of this little favour, why don't YOU put yourself in MY shoes on the day that that incident happened in your school, and feel how I feel being treated like TRASH. It burns right?

Of course I need to change my attitude every now and then to make myself a better person. YOU must too. Oh, wait, you NEED to change YOUR vile attitude.

Oh, come on now. Don't use that RELIGION thing here. I am sure your religion, whatever it is that you are practicing, even if you are an atheist, will teach you that it is not right to treat others like you are so superior. Or are you actually suggesting that your religion allows you to be so arrogant? I doubt so. It all finally boils down to: "Do unto others what you want others to do unto you". I am sure you have heard or read that somewhere?

I am as calm as the summer's breeze.

(^_^)y

Attack

When u attack Black people, they call it racism.

When u attack Jewish people, they call it anti-semetism.

When u attack women, they call it sexism.

When u attack homosexuality,they callit intolerance.

When u attack a Country, they call it treason.

When u attack a religious sect, they call it hate.

But when they attack the Prophet Mohammed, they call it freedom of speech?

Heartless

"Don't say I am heartless when you actually already broke it"

~REd

Fine line

There is definitely a super fine line between being curious and being a busy body. When you are curious, you are actually concerned about something or somebody. But when you are being a busy body, you will actually use the informations that you gather as an advantage to you and as ammunitions to shoot the other person down.

So, Annie, Black Magic Woman, Witch, and the gang.... please... toss off!

A piece of my mind

"Vegetarians are afraid to hurt animals but they are definitely not afraid to hurt another man's feelings"

~REd

never ever

I never believed in the word 'NEVER'.
But see, that statement that i just made,
Made me a hypocrite.

Now, I know, 'NEVER' does exist.
Especially when it hits you,
Right smack in the face.

I tried to be everything,
But everything to you is never enough.
You will always want something more.

I tried to be something then,
But something does not make you happy.
You want me to be perfect.

I tried to be perfect,
But that is not good enough.
Because my perfection is never enough for you.

I tried to be all that I am not,
Someone that I am,
Together at the same time,
But that is never enough.

I am sorry that I am not the person that you want me to be.
I am sorry that I can never make you happy because your happiness is out of my reach.
I am sorry that you are always saddened by me.

But please...
Trust me,
I have done all that is in my power
To make you smile again.
Still, it is never enough.

Most of all, I am sorry that I am never enough.

~REd

a poem for them

there are these 2 people that i know
are they a "he" or a "she"
i am afraid i can't reveal so.

they love to shop
they love to brag
but when it comes to pay time
they won't pay back.

do they act together?
hmmm... i am not too sure
wanna take a guess?
but hey, no pressure ;)

oh please, oh please, spare me this
i'm really not spying on you
you are not even on the celebrity A-list.

the things they do
they tell all kinds
and then they go on saying:
"oooo.... i have a stalker on my behind"

i go on thinking
with all i have
and then i have this to reply to that statement they made earlier
"what the eff?"

come on, grow up already
if you know who you are
there are things more precious than ego and pride
and it is definitely not your car.

so i am asking you this
when will all this end?
the shopping, the socializing, the gallavanting
but still how come there is no money in my bank?

~the end~



*so so so, written by me.

seratus sepuluh persen

"My love for you starts forever, and ends with never"

~Anonymous

rambutan hitam

"life is like a black man's left testicle. it is not right, it is not fair"

~abah in "Talentime"

aviatophobia

fact: there are more road crashes as compared to air crashes.

so, no worries eh, to those who have a fear of flying?

but the actual truth is: the possibility of surviving a road crash is higher than the possibility of surviving an air crash.

don't you think?

tiga dara pingitan

orang dulu-dulu, pakai baju bulu-bulu.
~arul


orang zaman kini, pakai baju berbikini.
~saras


orang masa depan, pakai kain kafan.
~REd

nota kaki ayam: langsung tak masuk akal peribahasa ni. ini la akibat terlalu bosan di department radiology.

owh, you are so wrong....

seriously, i wouldn't think that you'd stoop so low.

but, dabel-yu-ti-eff you know. as the song said, I will survive....




At first I was afraid
I was petrified
I kept thinking
I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights
Just thinking how you'd done me wrong
And I grew strong
I learned how to get along
So now you're back
From outer space
I just walked in to find you here
Without the look upon your face
I should have changed my f-ing lock
I would have made you leave your key
If I'd have known for just one second
You'd be back to bother me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my life to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

It took all the strength I had
Just not to fall apart
I'm trying hard to mend the pieces
Of my broken heart
And I spent oh so many nights
Just feeling sorry for myself
I used to cry
But now I hold my head up high
And you see me
With somebody new
I'm not that stupid little person still in love with you
And so you thought you'd just drop by
And you expect me to be free
But now I'm saving all my loving
For someone who's loving me

Oh now go,
Walk out the door
Just turn around now
You're not welcome anymore
Weren't you the one who tried to break me with desire
Did you think I'd crumble
Did you think I'd lay down and die
Oh no, not I
I will survive
As long as I know how to love I know I'll be alive
I've got all my live to live
I've got all my love to give
I will survive
I will survive
Yeah, yeah

i have it, do you?

faith: believing in something without evidence


some might call it ridiculous, some might call it stupid. but i call it courageous to have such strong belief on something that is physically not there.

so, i am NOT that ignorant.

isn't it great when....

you ask someone: "what do you want exactly?"

someone answers: "i don't want anything. i just NEED you."

it took me sometime to realize, but i finally found out that you are a bitch.

.....sekian, terima kasih....


p/s: aku tengah demam neh. decompression syndrome, caisson's disease. eh, seriously, aku mmg tengah demam neh. selsema.