and..... ACTION!!

hari ni aku kena buat case presentation. which means, instead of assisting, aku kena jadi main interviewer. aku masuk ward, aku pulak yang jadi disoriented. banyak pula new admissions. but this does not mean, that it is banyak patients for us to clerk. because most of them mmg tak stable pun.

mula2 ada satu patient macam super rela untuk aku clerk. aku tanya dia banyak kali, dia kata ok. blom sempat aku masuk ke chief complain, dia kata dia dah sudah. aku kena kencing sama pesakit mental, boleh? adoiyayy....

then, aku interview Xero. mula2 dia ok. jawap semua apa aku tanya, walaupun dia agak slow. i think it was the meds. then, lama2 sket tu, dia dah lalok la pulak. effect dari ubat that was administered to him. "pening arr doctor. nak g tido boleh?". haa.. pergi la.. pergi tido... aku rasa macam nak guling2 atas lantai. tapi aku control. kang tak silap haribulan kang, aku pulak yang kena masuk sini.

third time's a charm, bak kata orang. kata aja la. aku amik satu lagi patient yang aku tengok dia senyap je. nampak stable. ok, start arr interview. sekali interview, he talks IRRELEVANTLY and NONSTOP!! adoiyayy.... nak je aku tokak bucu meja interview tu, geram punya pasal. ntah apa yang dicakapkan oleh patient tu, aku pun tak pasti. he talks to himself. walaupun kami dah tak layan dia, he keeps on going. and he is so disoriented. but who am i to complain. esok bila dah kerja, kami bukannya boleh pilih patients kan? so, amik juga case ni.

bila doctor datang and aku berkobar2 nak present, dia kata takyah la pulak.... adoiyayy.... nak nangis air mata kucing jadinya tau dak? after all the effort and sampai tukar 3 patients, dia leh cakap takyah??? huhuhuh

we went straight to role play for history taking. that was another segment for the morning discussion. for the role play, aku jadi patient with OCD (obsessive compulsive disorder), AVS jadi doctor, and ASR jadi aku nyer sister. we never had any prior run thru for this scene and aku dapat cerita pun like 10mins before doctor datang. no dialogue, nothing. just us, acting out.

at the end of the scene, we were evaluated. bangga weh!! the others cakap that the way we acted was very convincing, AVS mmg macam doc, aku mmg macam patient, and ARS pun tak kurang juga. siap ada comment that we were very fluent, takde gap dalam our acting. bagus... bagus... doctor pun suka ngan kita nyer scene.

pastu, aku fikir2 arr... esok2 kalau mau venture away from jadi doctor, aku boleh la jadi pelakon dak?

ok, AFDLIN SHAUKI, MAMAT KHALID, YASMIN AHMAD, kalau nak pelakon, you know where to find me eh?

i am a secret box

aku rasa ada barang 5 hari la aku tunggu nak clerk satu patient baru ni. masa dia mula2 masuk, mmg dia tak sedar diri. meracau tak tentu hala. was aggressive. so he was put under restrain. days went by, and he was still tied to bed. but today, he was walking around, wide awake, but totally disoriented and irrelevant.

this patient's name is *Xero. dia from TUDM training camp. he is only 25 years young. never had any episode of substance abuse. informant (family) claimed that he was apparently well months back. he had 2 episodes of high fever before this incident of him being mentally unstable. so, i am thinking, mungkin there is an organic cause that made him in his current state. apart from that, family dia kata, dia tak tahan sama stress kat camp. bapak Xero is an aviator general.

as aku masuk ward pagi tadi, immediately *Mimi, the last patient that we had before the weekend, she came up to me. she was happy to see me and i was happy to see her too. aku tak tahu kenapa, i felt attached to her. like there is something that is making me want to help her so much. make her better. her story is a sad one. and sayang, she is a bright person, cuma peristiwa hitam yang membuatkan dia kurang stabil. otherwise, she is rather normal. she was from TKC, she did execellent most of the time and a distinction student. she was born in september. i keep on telling her that if she wants to talk, like a friend to a friend, she can always talk to me. but then... Siti NurHaliza came along and sort of took me away from Mimi. so Mimi had to wait in line.

see, SNH is very unstable. but she also has become attached to me because aku layan dia and i listen to her stories. let them be true or not, i listen to them. show her that she can trust me and she can tell me anything that she wants. so, most of my morning i was spending time with SNH but at the same time, i was also talking to Xero, trying to elicit his problem. but apa yang buat aku sangat tersentuh, was what SNH said:

"saya suka la jumpa sama doktor"

"kenapa?"

"saya rasa lega, tenang hati saya bila saya dapat cakap sama doktor"

"owh, terima kasih. apa je siti nak cakap, siti boleh beritahu saya ye"

and i left her at the table, let her do her own things.

and when Mimi saw that i was free. she immediately came to me. i asked where she went. she said that she went to sleep because the medication is making her drowsy. she took my hand and said that she has something to talk to me about. see, the feeling that i feel, is just indescribable. how they prefer to talk to you, tell you their life's secrets, the trust. it just makes me feel thankful.

but mind, this still does not mean that i like psychiatry. not at all.... duhhh!

beautifully imperfect

~yasmin


I love you.
It's not a weight you must carry around.
I love you.
It's not a box that holds you in.
I love you.
It's not a standard you have to bear.
I love you.
It's not a sacrifice I make.
I love you.
It's not a pedestal you are frozen upon.
I love you.
It's not an expectation of perfection.
I love you.
It's not my life's whole purpose (or yours).
I love you.
It's not to make you change.
I love you.
It's not even to make you love me.
I love you.
It's as pure and simple as that.

~anonymous

doodlezz

this is what i do

when i want to fill time

during those effing boring classes (read: uni subjects)

i doodle

anything that passes thru my mind

goes straight on paper

you like?

8th of May 2009

sleeping tips

1 DON'T SLEEP WITH WATCH
Watches can emit a certain level of radioactivity.
Though small, but if you wear your watch to bed
for a long time, it might have adverse effects on your health.

2 DON'T SLEEP WITH BRA
Scientists in America have discovered those that
wear bras for more than 12 hours have
a higher risk of getting breast cancer.
So go to bed without it.

3 DON'T SLEEP WITH PHONE
Putting the phone beside your bed or anywhere
near you is not encouraged.
Though some of us will use phones as alarm clocks,
but please put the phone as far as possible.
Scientists have proved that electrical items including
mobile phone and television sets emit magnetic waves when used.
These waves can cause disruptions to our nervous system.
Therefore if you need to put your mobile phone near you,
switch it off first.

4 DON'T SLEEP WITH MAKE UP
People who sleep with make up might have
skin problems in the long run.
Sleeping with make up will cause the skin to have
difficulty in breathing and problem in perspiring.
You will also need a much longer time to go into deep sleep.

Lastly.....

5 DON'T SLEEP WITH OTHERS' WIFE / HUSBAND
You may never wake up again.

aku gedik, aku gedik.... tolong la... aku gedik ni

ok, sila lihat tajuk di atas. mmg macam nak kena tampar laju2 ja bunyinya kan? bukan sebab apa. semenjak dua tiga menjak ni, aku dipertemukan sama orang2 yang suka menggedik tak tentu hala. kalau nak tergedik2 sorang takpe arr. ni menggedik sebab nak dapatkan attention orang lain. alahai, please la. takyah la nak berlagak begitu cheap. i mean, kalau nak jadi cheapskate (betul ke aku eja ni?) macam aku, tu lain cerita la. at least aku tak tergedik2 kan.

ni la dia nya. nak kata tak diberi tumpuan, rasanya dah berbilang orang kasi tumpuan. nak di kata tak di hiraukan, punya la banyak orang yang kisahkan. doctor ada, nurses ada, doctor-in-trainings ada, kawan2 ada. apa lagi yang kamu mahu harr?? saja la cari penyakit, cari hal, supaya suffer la konon, pastu minta belas kasihan kat semua orang. iewww... so the drama.

serious aku tak tahan orang yang sangat cheap dan menggedik. sila jangan berinteraksi dengan aku.

**entry ni mmg paling banyak guna perkataan gedik. dan pada sesiapa yang terasa, sila terasa dengan majunya. sekian.

Razif nak jadi polis untuk tangkap SitiNurHaliza yang menyanyi lagu spanyol

"morning doctor KL....", tegur razif. aku tengah assist CLL interview Touchu.

"morning"

"doctor KL. saya dah tak mahu jadi askar la. saya nak jadi polis. polis yang tangkap orang gila untuk masuk ward ni"

"iye, baiklah"

"bolehkan doctor?"

"boleh, kan ke tu kerja mulia" . habis hang buat apa la dalam ni in the first place Razif oii....(bisik hati kecilku)

........................................................................

kelmarin, aku assist CPP interview *SitiNurHaliza. case SNH ni mmg la complicated. nak dapat info dari dia lagi la super complicated. but this is a challenge that we took anyways. a patient is a patient. mana leh nak pilih2 kan?

CCH pun ada juga ngan kami masa tu. dia mula berjinak dengan cara2 untuk interview patients. so, sambil aku sama CPP cakap sama SNH (yang mula menjawap soalan dengan elok kemudian end up menyanyi lagu dalam bahasa2 yang dia create sendiri, atau bahasa2 seperti spanish dan hindustan), CCH menulis apa info yang vital. masa tu, Razif duduk kat belakang CCH. Tiba2 aku tengok, Razif amik rambut CCH and kemudian hidu bau rambut dia.

omg....

aku dah takut dah untuk CCH. aku tgk CCH pun dah macam uncomfy. dia tak berani nak marah, takut2 kalau Razif makin syok pulak bila dia marah.

"doctor, doctor" tegur Razif kepada CCH yang buat bodo je terhadap Razif.
"doctor, rambut doctor wangi la. Doctor pakai syampu apa? saya pun nak cuba"

adoiyayy Razif.... kamu biar benar. kamu tu nak syampu apa? kepala pun dah separa botak ni...

(=_=")

dah muda dah mak aku

ini Mama REd.
sila jangan jealous sebab mak aku lawa.
hari ini hari jadi dia.
yang ke berapa?
mana boleh kasi tau.
korang teka arr.
card yang aku hantar dah sampai 3 hari sebelum birthday dia.
presents yang aku hantar akan sampai 3 bulan lepas birthday dia.
pandai kan aku budget timing?
patut mak aku hantar aku gi ngaji kira2 balik semula la.
apa punya anak la....
haishhh......

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMMY!! YOU RAWK! I MISS AND LOVE YOU LOADS...."