T - 6: lagi kisah pirate?

sebenarnya entry ini adalah untuk hari T - 7. tapi disebabkan oleh blogsphere atau internet yang tak menentu, REd tak dapat nak upload gambar ni. so sekarang dah dapat (dengan menggunakan alternatif lain), REd nak share la apa REd nampak hari T - 7 tu.

 

wahai rakan-rakan ku, sila lah beritahu hamba yang kurang fasih ni, adakah ini PERODUA MyVi, atau adakah ini kereta keluaran TOYOTA?

nampaknya pirating kereta kat sini dah semakin terhangat di pasaran.

kalau beli CD pirate, kena tangkap. kalau pakai kereta pirate, cool kott?

T - 6: "Ma?"

ok, confirm. my insomnia is back. and i am pretty sure that it is gonna be with me for awhile.

haishhh.....

i slept off at 0004hours and suddenly found myself awake again at 0153hours. the weirdest thing was, i woke up and i heard myself say: "Ma? Mama?...." and then, i just sat there, thinking. why was i looking for my mum?

i didn't remember dreaming about her. i mean, i didn't really had the chance to dream as i barely slept for 2 hours. but in the midst of somewhat looking for my mother, i felt really sad. like i know that she is not here with me. of course she isn't. she is in KL, i am here. stuck here without a choice.

i guess it finally hit me: that they are going off pretty soon. there was a time in my life where i didn't see my mother for 2 years. yes, 2 WHOLE years. but that didn't bother me that much. that was the time when mama was staying and working in dubai. my other siblings had the chance to visit her, but i didn't, as i was in Russia. i somehow got used to it that i didn't see her. but we kept in touch diligently via mail, phone, SMS. and then, finally she came back to Malaysia, and i was back from Russia for my summer break. from then on, she was always around. and i got comfortable, knowing that she'd be home when i get back.

soon, they will all be off. pretty soon. at first, i felt that nana's departure is affecting me much. since i have already gone through the phase of not seeing my mother, i didn't think that her departure too will play a significant role in my mind.

now i do. now i realised. when i go back home after the 10th of jan 2009, my mother will not be there. she will be half-way across the world, in another continent. then it'll be back to square one: diligent communication via phone, email, IM, SMS.

it is hard to admit than deny. but admitting is so much better than denial. i admit, my mother's departure is affecting me. i am gonna miss her too.....

and... at God-knows-what-time, i was playing the song 'IRONIC' by Alanis Morissette, on my guitar. weird ain't it?

T - 7: nanchaku memecahkan tingkap aku

REd tak pernah tau pun bendalah ni nama dia NANCHAKU (macam buah ciku pun ada juga bunyinya kan?).

sekarang ni jam 0428hours. pasal apa aku tak tido lagi? pasal insomnia aku dah datang balik. aku rasa aku dah boleh narrow down kenapa yang aku kena recurrent chronic insomnia ni tau. sebab aku banyak sangat berfikir. serious, macam macam ada dalam kepala ni. study la, family la, hidup la, kawan la, lawan la, you name it. oh, bai the way, aku jaga sejak 0156hours tadi. sebelum tu, aku tido pukul 2304hours. see, tere kan aku? (tere kehapanya. aku nak tido la weii!!)

so, sebab REd tak dapat nak lelap, REd nak tulis la pasal kisah yang telah terjadi pada senja 1 Jan 2009.

masa tu REd tengah study for the paper that i was about to sit for the very next day. my level of concentration was already nearing zero, but my level of stress was sky high, and my level of consciousness... well, lets just say that at that moment, i wasn't aware of my surroundings. just my books and my notes.

aku dengar jo-ee balik, and at some point she was conversing with me (i think :P). i am pretty sure i replied to her questions carefully, worrying that i might be mumbling things straight from my TEN TEACHERS. i minded my own business, and jo-ee was practicsing to use the nanchaku with her TKD master, right outside my window. at the same time, some of ying's friends were over for dinner. things were going on, conversations were taking place, i was totally in my zone.

then, i heard a loud blow. reflexively, i looked to my left. what i saw did not register soon enough for me to finally realize: "hey, tingkap aku dah pecah". it sounded like as if someone just shot a bullet thru the window, no, i am not making up stories. immediately, i stood up, drew my curtain, and looked outside. TKD master was looking inside at me, jo-ee was already at my door, apologizing frantically. i....... i don't want to talk, i don't want to say anything, i don't want to get angry. i just want to clean up the mess, get things back in order, and sit and read.

as i was cleaning up the mess, i heard she said to TKD master: "she is really angry already. she is too quiet" .yes, that is my habit. when i get really angry, i know that there will be too many harsh words that will travel from my tounge to the recipients' eardrums. hence, the situation will get more complicated than it was already is. then, why bother go thru all the trouble, eh? i'd rather just close up and do what was necessary: pick up the pieces. they were busy too, cleaning up alongside me. TKD master was doing the damage control by covering that big hole in the window with trashcan lining. well, dude, that didn't do any good actually. i am currently being bitten by mosquitoes as i am typing here.

as i was doing my thing, in my very deafening silence, i could see that they were whispering among each other instead of talking. they must have panicked (or scared. i can't really tell). as soon as i was done, i went straight back to my desk, started reading (or at least started trying to read), and pretending as if nothing had happened. the whispers continued and not long after, TKD master came to my room with jo-ee: "alia, i am going back already"
REd: "uhuh, ok"
TKD master: "sorry about what just happened. the nanchaku broke and hit your window"
REd: "dude, accidents happen. let it go man. i am willing to let it go"
TKD master: "didn't know that you are having exams tomorrow. sorry again, and good luck"
REd: "well, now you know. thanks"

after that, the night just didn't go normally. jo-ee's guilt was so strong that i could feel it in the air. about 30mins later, i wasn't angry anymore. i just couldn't care. my exams are more important. i'm like: "whatev....."

lalalallala.....

jam sekarang menunjukkan 0455hours. i am still effing wide awake. aku nak tido.... tolong!!

T - 8: aktiviti ketika bosan: tag diri sendiri

takde saper yang tag REd. REd tag diri REd sendiri. ye, aku tau, aku mmg pathetic. ahhh... lantak, aku blogcrawling tadi, aku nampak ni macam seronok je. aku nak buat la.

ready? aci aci....acimet! (ala ala Allahyarham Ibrahim Pendek dalam cerita 'Ali Baba Bujang Lapok)

1) Do you think you're hot?


Katy Perry Lyrics
Hot N Cold Lyrics
iye la kott. bukan REd yang kata ok, KATY PERRY yang kata. aku ikutkan aja.


2) Upload your favorite picture of you!

3) Why do you like that picture?
-sebab masa tu aku memang betul2 happy. thanks ma for the experience! mak aku pun suka gambar ni. ah boy yang makeup aku masa tu pun suka juga. saper yang tangkap gambar ni? saper lagi kalau tak adik aku yang tere itu, nana.

dan masa itu aku kecil dari aku masa ini.

4) When was the last time you ate pizza?
-bukan pizza la, tapi bontot pizza. ala, yang dia punya crust yang tak kena topping tu. ntah, arr, aku suka naa makan bahagian tu. lain la kalau pizza tu aku yang buat sendiri, then baru aku makan the whole piece.

berbalik pada soalan, last aku makan pizza punya bontot masa pergi Italiannies, OU. 3minggu lepas rasanya.

sedap tak? sedap la juga bontot pizza tu. bayangkan: kalau bontot dia aja dah sedap, pizza dia sudah tentu lagi sedap kan? aku buat anggaran aja.

5) The last song you listened to?
-'Push the button' from Sugarbabes. aku sebut nama kumpulan ni sebagai shu-gah-ba-bes. ala, bukan la aku nak dengar pun. dah fon tu bunyi and lagu tu yang kuar, aku dengar arr.

6) What are you doing right now besides this?
- tengah plan nak buat apa. ni la dia nyer. masa kena study, sibuk nak buat macam2. masa tengah free, satu haram pun tak tau apa nak buat. arrggghhh!!! komplikasi!!

7) What name would you prefer besides yours?
- ALYA. aku tau, bunyi nya tetap sama. takde maknanye... hehehe...

takde arr, REd mmg suka ngan nama sendiri. sebab kenot imagine kalau nama aku lain dari ALIA. sebelum aku jadi ALIA, menurut cerita-cerita dongeng zaman silam, nama aku patut jadi AZIZAH (adoiyayy....retro sungguh), sempena mengikut nama papa aku. then, tukar pulak jadi AMALINA (sebab tu family and close family friends semua panggil aku MARLYNE. ada yang sampai tak tahu nama aku ALIA sebenarnya). last-last, nama aku jadi ALIA sebab kazen aku pun nama ALIYA. aku tak pasti akan kesahihan cerita ni. aku sendiri pun nak find out sebenarnya.

People To Tag
1)djambu (ahaks! REd memang suka tag dia ni. rajin buat tag maa...)
2)ushop (ni pun geng Odessa gak ni. tapi naper lama tak nampak? sihat ka?)
3)peeps (ni lagi aku suka tag sebab jawapan dia lawak)
4)ana (sebab dia sangat ayu dan lemah lembut. awwwww....)
5)lexie (if you are reading)

8) Who is number one?
- doktor la, saper lagi.

9) Number three is having a relationship with?
- bini dia la. saper ke nama.... (hehehe maaf peeps, cek mmg tak tahu)

10) Say something about number five?
- dia sayang pada lelaki itu

11) How about number four?
- kan ke dah tulis sana, gi la baca. malas pulak!

12) Who is number two?
- boyfriend orang kott? aku rasa macam iye la dia ni ada gf. heheheh, baca blog dia macam ada je.

T - 8: awalnyer.....

0315 hours: "the way you look tonite......" bunyi CHOKIA n93i mengejutkan aku.

0316 hours: zzzzzzzzz.........

0358 hours: EFF!!! karang tak sempat karang!!! bangun!!

pagi ni aku bangun super awal lah. sebab apa, sebab aku mmg kaget la hari ni. aku rasa tak kem konfiden nak dok xm hari ni. tapi aku nak ia berlalu secepat mungkin sebab otak aku punya tepu, Tuhan aja la yang tau. hippocampus aku dah tahap hypertonic dengan fakta OBGYN, sampai aku sendiri boleh terlupa apa benda yang aku baca. adoiyayy....

dah 0700 hours, aku bersiap. punya la yakin exam starts at 0900hours. 0735hours, aku dah kuar umah. menapak la aku ke campus tu. selalunya, aku dengar radio. ni, takyah nak dengar radio pun, macam macam ada dalam otak aku ni. i listened to my own train of thoughts.

0750 hours: "adeeekkkk....mau pergi mana adeekkk?"
REd: "ada exam la uncle, pukul 9 nnt."
uncle: "awat adeekk datang awal? exam kalu, rumah sana duduk baca sikit jam, baru mai la."
REd: "tak boleh la uncle. saya dah tension baca dah ni. rasa seram sejuk nak pergi xm pun ada ni."
uncle: "ok la adeeekkk... jalan baik2 aaa...duduk exam elok2 aaa."

sampai kat GREAT HALL, aku tengok takde saper pun lagi. ahhh...duduk la, baca la apa yang patut. tak beberapa lama kemudian, datang arr geng bas sekolah xm-sitters aku. semua muka macam tak tido 3 hari 3 malam. aku pun apa kurang. dari aku start keluarkan notes aku, sampai la ni, menguap macam singa. masa xm lagi la teruk. menguap sana, menguap sini. mmg sah cerebellum aku tak cukup oksigen, patut la fakta tak nak kuar dari memory.

0830 hours: haaa... ada sket masa lagi ni, baca, baca, baca sampai terkeluar biji mata tu.

0845 hours: "jash, what time does the exam starts?"
jash: "at 9.30"
REd: "haaa? i thought 9?"
jash: "no la, didn't you get the message?"
REd: "my message reads that only paeds start at 9.30, the rest at 9am"
jash: "wrong info la"

hmmm... patut la ada banyak lagi budak yang tak datang. hai la nasib. asyik2 salah info je yang aku dapat. well, at least leh mugging lagi, tak?

sebelum buka xm paper tu, aku punya baca doa, siap khatam la 30 juz (gila exagerrate, padahal aku baca doa apa pun tadi, aku sendiri kurang pasti. harap bukan doa masuk tandas, sudah :P). tapi aku punya kan cheong, tak pandai nak hilang ni... haisshhh....

masa tengah dok xm tu, aku tulis je la apa yang aku tau dan aku rasa betul. soalan2 dia mmg style orang nak duduk untuk MRCOG punya. maklumla HOD dept OBGYN kat sini dah tahap professor kan, jadi soalan style ini aja la yang akan dikeluarkan from now on.

"hooo Gardenia, sungguh enak di makan begitu saja...." perut aku menyanyi. adoiyayy.... ayam serama betul la. time time ni la ko nak berbunyi. kan ke dah b'fast pukul 6 tadi. sabaq la sket. aku tengah anxious ni, kau pulak sibuk nak bekeroncong. aku puasa nanti baru kau tau!

imagine, aku buleh tak cukup masa nak menulis. selalunya, kalau 2 jam xm, 30mins sebelum habis, aku dah pushing pencil dah, tak tahu nak buat apa. ni, tinggal 3 minit lagi, aku masih menulis dengan harapan apa yang aku tulis tu adalah satu point yang akan diberi markah.

"ok, put down your pens, time to hand in your papers"

ahhh... lega. habis sudah xm hari ni. ni la masa yang aku tunggu. lepas ni mmg la ada paper lagi, FORENSIC AND CLINICAL INVESTIGATIONS. tapi aku tak kisah sangat pasal paper ni. bukan nak kata aku tere, aku malas je. ahaks! tapi tengok arr, jap lagi, tentu dah start baca lagi. gila kiasu betul la aku ni.

OBGYN tadi senang ke? .... tak juga....
susah ke? ... tak juga....
dah tu? .... lagi susah dari paeds, tapi tak susah sampai aku takleh jawap la.

insya'Allah.....

T - 9: aku dah betul-betul dyslexic ke?

dalam perjalanan balik dari TESCO, aku baru perasan bahawa kat sini kereta yang amat popular dikalangan pengguna jalan raya adalah 'tomato box' (gelaran yang diberi oleh mama dan shad, pada kereta kancil, kelisa, kenari). of course kita semua dah sedia maklum balas bahawa PERODUA adalah production house bagi kereta2 tersebut kan?

bai roti the way, korang tau ke mana datangnya nama 'PERODUA'? haa... meh sini REd educate sket. pada yang tak tahu, 'PERODUA' tu datang nyer dari 2 perkataan yang disambung. perkataan itu adalah 'PERODUKSI' dan 'KEDUA' = 'PERODUA'. sebab 'PROTON' tu kan ke production house pertama kereta2 buatan Malaysia.

ok ok...back to the future story. aku masa tu tengah galak berborak sama jo-ee. maklum la, dah lebih kurang seminggu tak story mory. jadi amik peluang yang ada untuk hapdate diri masing2 la kan. sekali dia soh aku tengok kereta depan. nasib aku tgh pakai silver oaks masa tu, kalau tak, tentu aku tak nampak. kan ke aku ni rabun.....



ini yang aku nampak. 'PERODUA' dah jadi 'PREODUA'. aik, takkan kereta buatan Malaysia pun dah pandai kena pirate ni? aku sangka jenama terkemuka seperti ADIDAS bila di-pirate menjadi ASADI, aja yang akan terjadi. ni, barang buatan Malaysia sendiri pun kena pirate ngan rakyat sendiri.

macam mana ni kawan?

T - 9: shaken, not stirred

aku pergi TESCO sama jo-ee kelmarin. nak beli barang dapur and toiletries sket. berlambak la juga orang kat sana. tapi sebab aku dah sehari suntuk menatap subjek gynae, i just take my chances la. kuar jap. kurang kan pressure build up dalam cranium ni.

biasa arr aku, kalau pergi hypermart ke, kedai runcit ke, kedai accessories ke, kedai kasut ke, janji yang namanya "kedai", aku punya habit: aku suka tengok benda. walau la benda tu dah seratus kali aku tgk, aku tetap akan belek lagi. saja je. pastu, kalau benda pelik, aku baca ke, aku tanya macam mana nak guna/masak ke, atau aku tangkap gambar.

buat apa tangkap gambar? tunjuk kat korang la. ok tengok ni. ko tengok yang sebelah kiri tu, yang tu, aku tak sentuh, cuma pusingkan botol tu aja pada paksinya. ko nampak tak gumpalan sediment kat bawah tu? what is that???

then, lepas aku goncang botol tu, ko cuba tengok yang belah kanan tu, dia jadi keruh. kalau ko amik tengok dekat2, you could see percipitates dalam tu. like, ewwwwww......

mesti korang nak tau amenda ni kan?


rasa REd, ni kordial kott. jo-ee kata, sebab tu la jangan beli air yang derang jual kat pasar malam, they use this kind of cheap stuffs yang terlalu banyak additives and chemicals. then aku check la harga sebotol berapa. rm4.49. aku cakap kat jo-ee, tak mungkin la kott sebab orang jual air kat pasar malam tu mesti pakai kordial yang lebih murah, dan of course lebih bahaya.

REd: baik aku dehydrated dari minum air macam ni.

T - 9: 1st jan 2009, just another day.

*yawnn....

hey, welcome 2009!! sorry.... your welcoming party has reduced to....ONE, that is me. erkk, you caught me at a bad moment. i thought no one would come by. well, at least i am awoken by the SMSes (just SMSes), and the continuous calls from some people that i don't feel like talking to right now. oh look! it is 0000hours already!!

*from a distance....."YAAAAAAAAAAMMMMMMMMM SSSSSSEEEEEEEEENNNNGGG!!!!!"

hear that 2009? they are celebrating you. why don't you go and join them? i don't mind being alone at home right now, really. infact, i am glad that nobody is home with me. at least i don't have to pretend to be happy. actually 2009, i think your arrival to me, is rather premature. i mean, yeah, chronologically, you are due to come. but according to my calculations, you should (or i wish you would) come a month later maybe? hehehe i know, i know it is a stupid wish, but hey, no harm in being hopeful eh?

it seems that you are catching up too fast 2009. you are a meanie you know. now, come count with me, how many days do i have left until they fly off? 10 days but technically i have a day and a half to be with them before they go. thanks 2009, because of your rush, my time has been cut short.

hmmm....this must be the only time that i am not at all in a celebration mood. infact, the plan was for me to sleep the point where the day turns over from 2008 to 2009. well, that plan faltered as we all know. ermm... are you sure you wanna stay, 2009? i mean, i could be really boring you know. i think i might just go narcoleptic on you.

ok 2009, you do what you want to do. i won't plan much this year. i will just let things fall through. my motto this year (which i hope to stick with): be contented. help yourself with whatever is in the fridge (nothing much really, most of them aren't mine. but they allow you to take if you want to). owh, you wanna toast first? awww, you are so sweet 2009. but mind, i don't take alcohol. never did. will pepsi max do? ok, cheers!!

now, let me get back to my books and maybe fall asleep while reading.

have a great year everyone.